Cant do this

when I got to an age where I started looking around and realizing the world was actually supposed to be full of love and hope was when the life I have now began it’s a long sad story and true I’ve known only short bits of peace followed by pain and tragedy and loss but somehow I believe some of us were built to handle that certain people were meant to carry the heavy weight of many by themselves  I like art because it’s honest it truly shows everyone else an honest blink of the world through your eyes and in a world that’s so numb those few people who carry this weight everyone has them in there life they bend over backwards for people always smile and then people just forget or decide to not care or maybe had never cared that person who tried to hold so much who only wanted not even people but a single person to look at the world through there pain and say it’s ok I’m here and I still care that’s why I am like that finding others is hard and everyday is a struggle to keep trying it never gets easier especially the way we are as people we open up free ourselves through expression this life can be a piece of art or a copy of all that around u to make others happy while u give yourself up and sacrifice so much while they gain nothing but you still have moments those blinks those memories those flashes of love and even hate and pain the things that make us human those beautiful scarred people that’s life art love all of it we are all perfectly imperfect but it’s hard and lonely and sometimes the words others say have turned ash in my mouth my hands shake and all I can do is hold steady and pray one day that someone can look at me through my life and pain and say your still ok I said I wouldn’t leave and here I am cause life love the way we see the world and art and love if we put ourselves in those positions to try hold on a while longer someone might grab u and not let go but it’s hard to hope silver linings come fewer and farther between sunny days are unfortunately due to Minnesota not even a possibility cause snow sucks and that’s all people know it for but I digress it’s easy to hate but I like other people’s art and love way to much so I’ll just say a knight in shining armor has never truly had his metal tested have they