So I guess like anything I should start at the beginning of this whole thing. It’s hard to remember even what I was like as a lover or boyfriend prior to finding out about my true self in the lifestyle. I remember that up until that business trip I took to Hampton Roads, VA, I had only ever wanted to be a conscientious lover; to be remembered fondly, maybe make sure that she had an orgasm or two. I already knew my combination and what worked best for me.
So, let’s harken back to ten years ago. I was in the military and attending a public health conference in Hampton Roads. To say that I was bored out of my mind is an understatement. But, I was there on the government dime so had a nice room in a hotel and I skipped out of some of the conference to just go get away. I went back to my suite and said what the hell, and jumped on craigslist. That’s when I found her…
She was gorgeous. That I can remember very clearly. Her pictures looked like a model. On the phone and via email, she told me she wanted me to dominate her. Sounding cocky and wanting to get laid, I agreed, despite the fact that I had NO IDEA what that entailed. So, I googled it.
She arrived at the hotel. I went down and met her at the sliding glass doors and goddamn it if she wasn’t even better looking than her pictures, with long red hair and huge breasts and a pretty face. She looked up at me and said hi, sizing me up and then took a deep breath and looked down. I was taken aback. What the hell was that? Not the normal reaction when I was meeting a potential sexual partner for the first time.
You see, I had been single for a few years and had been working out a lot, I was in the military already for a while and a veteran of both Iraq and Afghanistan. I’m 6’1”, muscular and tatted up. I shaved my head and have a decent face. I’m confident and can be charming. I’m also from Texas, where I was brought up to be a gentleman and to under no circumstances EVER hit a woman. Or scare one.
Yet here I was, with a gorgeous girl in front of me, who came to see me and have sex with me….and she wasn’t reacting in any recognizable form that I had ever witnessed.
I wasn’t sure what to do so I started walking back towards the elevators. She joined me, without saying a word. We got to them and went inside an open car, and stood side by side as we went up the floors. I wasn’t sure what to do…so I reached up and put my hand on the back of her neck. Not tightly, just pressure. She immediately tensed up...and then melted. Wow. I can’t even begin to tell you or describe to you the feeling I was feeling. I had never felt like this before. Here was a woman…putting her faith and trust in me after just meeting me. It was…intoxicating.
We went back to the room. I made her stand there so I could admire her. She didn’t speak except to say “yes, sir” or “no, sir”. I made her take off all of her clothes and fold them neatly on the couch in the front room of the suite. She stood there and I admired her true self. She was stunning. A 10. Out of my league…and yet she stood there and bore my scrutiny with no flush to her cheeks or defiance in her eyes…just an erotic meekness that was turning me on in a way that never had before.
I had no idea what I was doing. I bent her over and spanked her, whispered to her and attempted to seduce her. I’m sure I totally fucked it up. I was new to this and awkwardly trying to assert my dominance over this gorgeous morsel. However, we did end up having sex.
It was intense. She finished up riding on top and we came at the same time at the end, and rode the waves of euphoria together. Then, as if a switch was clicked, she looked at me intensely and said, “you know, not bad for your first time Domming someone. You could be good at this. That was fun.”
I’m not kidding: I was floored. This woman, this hot, sexy and gorgeous creature had submitted to my awkward ministrations and actually enjoyed what we were doing. I’m lying there in a puddle of sweat and confusion, with feeling going through my head and body that I had never felt before….and I WAS HOOKED.
Afterwards, I started researching a lot more about BDSM, about the lifestyle and learned so much more. I found out that even though I was good at the punishment and physical control of the submission, I truly loved getting into their heads more than anything. Controlling their responses and curtailing any negative feedback. I especially like “brats”, love that they give me a little bit of clapback and then I put them in their place.
I was hooked, and bound and determined to become a true Dom. Master Jay.....was born.
