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The Muse

A creature that drives inspiration and passion in the soul of an artist.... Why is she charmed? She has become enthralled with her subject. The artist has rendered her to her knees.
1 day ago. Mon 12 Nov 2018 05:29:46 PM IST

**The following poem may contain some old tears and snot bubbles... The words do not reflect my current jolly mood**


I cannot cry

The tears won't come

I can't feel pain

Feel joy

Feel love

I'm dead inside

The smile,it lies

All the times

I'm cold

I'm numb

You tell me words

They're from your heart

It makes me sad

Your touch

Your tears

Like a stone

I feel it now

That hollow hell

The guilt

That stare

I want to feel

But passion ebbs

That drink consumes

My tears

My care

Within that cup

I've been replaced

My heavy heart

Your choice

Your face

It burns my eyes

They're almost there

My longed for tears



2 days ago. Mon 12 Nov 2018 12:04:57 AM IST

Not necessarily at large... If you are reading this ... it probably does not apply to you.



Dear Male Subs,

I am not a Domme. 

The end.




2 days ago. Sun 11 Nov 2018 04:40:33 PM IST

As I updated my profile, I added a section on my education and the master’s program I was working on.  I have spent years in some of the most dysfunctional relationships and my goal is to stop the cycle.  I’ve been in and out of the lifestyle for many years and I have come to realize that BDSM provides some of the best structure for a healthy and long lasting relationship.


The emphasis on communication and honesty is paramount to my belief.  I also think that the roles we take play a large part and that, if executed properly,  there are no false pretenses or unspoken expectations that go unfulfilled.  


A good Dom/Domme puts so much of themself into caring for Their sub.  I am certain it takes tons of energy and time and often, a lot of patience.  This kind of dedication to the relationship is needed; even in the most vanilla of situations. Even when I turn down offers, I always am appreciative of the time One spends, getting to know me...beyond my picture.  


As a sub...I almost feel lazy in comparison.  Any other subs get that? Of course, I am willing to put in as much as I get and it’s always my desire to go above and beyond...


This mutual agreement between the two roles, and the willingness to “do the work”... is what makes it such a success.  (In my opinion).  


I was considering hypothesizing a theory in couples counseling based on the D/s dynamics because it just seems so valuable.  In my research, I found this article where a therapist actually has done just that!  

BDSM Therapy


I just thought I’d share! :)


4 days ago. Sat 10 Nov 2018 12:25:21 AM IST

Some people have a gazillion pictures of their kids... 

Now... I love my kids a great deal and had I a cell phone back when they were little... I might have a gazillion pictures of them.  

I have a gazillion pictures of my kitty cat.  So... enjoy. Because Milo is the best and I love him.  

4 days ago. Fri 09 Nov 2018 11:31:24 PM IST

My closet is home to many embarrassing garments.  I don’t know why I hang on to things that I know I will never wear again; much less remove from the hanger.  I have a pair of harem pants that are 10 sizes too big ... at least.  I don’t plan on growing into them. They are just so awesome that I hate to relinquish them into the world of second-hand rejects.  I also have things that are too small that I’m determined to fit myself into ... one day.  I have very few items in there (save for my gothy dancing attire)...that fit me NOW.  


I think ... (I think too much really) I think I should be kinder to my present self.  I need to clear out these garments. Maybe find something new that fits me NOW.





5 days ago. Thu 08 Nov 2018 11:30:21 PM IST

Because I’m in the mood to wax poetic. 


In Our Bed

There He lay

In the bed of our making

There He lay

In the garments of our love 


Where the river washes over us

And the earth beneath us quakes

And the hills and valleys dance

Across the ripples in the lakes


His light surrounds my temple

In a penetrating way

His light surrounds my soul

In His light I wish to stay


Where the river washes over us

And the earth beneath us quakes

And the hills and valleys dance

And my temple, yearning, aches


How I long to lay beside Him

With His blessing on my skin

How I long to lay beside Him

And be blessed thrice again


Where the river washes over us

And the earth beneath us moves

And the hills and valleys drink

As His blessed fountain soothes


And there He lay in that bed

Annointed with my scent

And there He lay in that bed

The blessing has been spent










5 days ago. Thu 08 Nov 2018 11:00:17 PM IST

After all this time

I close my eyes

Your face 

Your eyes

Staring into mine

I hold my breath

I feel so empty

The sadness

Like a slow drip

In a hollow space

The only sound

Filling the void


To my knees

No words

As I had been

With you there

The scent of you

Still stirs me

Like no other

Every syllable

Of your name


Through me

Like a pulse

I could cry

You gave me time

You waited

I remained



You would see me

Through the lies

I mourn the loss

But you

Are not dead

Yet I feel joy 

As I know

You exist

And I grieve

As I cannot


This joy

With you

5 days ago. Thu 08 Nov 2018 06:31:12 PM IST

Face to Face  by Siousxie and the Banshees 

Face to face
My lovely foe
Mouth to mouth
Raining heaven's blows
Hand on heart
Tic tac toe
Under the stars
Naked as we flow
Cheek to cheek
The bitter sweet
Commit your crime in your deadly time
Commit your crime in your deadly time
It's too divine
I want to bend
I want this bliss but something says I must resist
Another life
Another time
We're Siamese twins writhing intertwined
Face to face
No telling lies
The masks they slide to reveal a new disguise
You never can win
It's the state I'm in
This danger thrills and my conflict kills
They say follow your heart
Follow it through
But how can you
When you're split in two?
And you'll never know
You'll never know
One more kiss
Before we die
Face to face
And dream of flying
Who are you?
Who am I?
Wind in wings
Two angels falling
To die like this
With a last kiss
It's falsehood's flame
It's a crying shame
Face to face
The passions breathe
I hate to stay but then I hate to leave
And you'll never know
You'll never know

1 week ago. Mon 05 Nov 2018 07:29:33 AM IST

Something I enjoy doing in my free time (which... I have precious little of)... I draw these mandalas.  It is, by far, the most relaxing thing to draw and takes very little concentration.  The entire process keeps my subconscious from becoming weighed down by thoughts and stress.  From start to finish, it takes me about twelve hours to complete one.   

1 week ago. Mon 05 Nov 2018 06:37:07 AM IST

I tried to see the stars

That very moment

What it would mean


Their shine 

Won’t lift the ache

Or still my heart

Stop my thoughts

My desire

I’m only humbled

And sobered


I’m so very small

Lost in you

I’d say your eyes

But it’s more

Your smile

Still more

All of you

Sometimes I feel

The devil 

Has caught me

The lived

The loved

The You.