It's All Relevant

Are you ashamed to crawl to him because your belly hangs and your tits sway? Do you prefer online LDRs because if she sees your small stature in real life she won’t respond to your authority? Do your ribs show so distinctly that you’re always dreading the first comment about eating something so you’ll be healthy?

Too fat. Too short. Too skinny. Too loud. Too smart. Too hairy. Too old. Not enough money. Not enough experience. In a wheelchair. Lost a limb. A basket case with enough luggage to open a store.

Stop. Just stop.

You are you. And whoever that is you are a unique addition to the world. There is no other exactly like you which makes you a rare prize. And in this world, there are those who would give anything to possess that prize.

Be proud of yourself. Love you. Don’t obsess over those who don’t value your brand of awesomeness. But remember to be open and accepting of those who do. If the internet teaches you nothing else it should be clear that there is a Ying to every yang.

*Unknown

From the beginning, I already knew I needed something different from you. More than just your body. More than just a one-time casual fuck. More. Something that started slow. Simmered. A comfort. A place to lay my head. A smile to wake up to. I wanted to know as much as you would let me. I needed to memorize everything about you. Piece by precious piece. I craved your laughter. Your secrets. Your darkness and your light. I wanted my soul completely fucking entangled with yours. I needed to be your peace. Your good thing. Your dark thing. Our bodies were already familiar. It wouldn't be like meeting you, but like coming home. Our lips not just touching, but breathing life back into the other. I never just wanted to fuck your body. I wanted to fuck your soul.

~herreconciled-heart

Charles Bukowski holds a special place in my heart as one of my favorite authors. His writing resonates deeply with me, and I believe his work remains as impactful and relevant today as it was when it was first written. If you're looking to delve into his literature, I highly recommend starting with "Women," a captivating and thought-provoking exploration of the complexities of human relationships.

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* “Some people never go crazy. What truly horrible lives they must lead.”

* “What matters most is how well you walk through the fire”

*“You have to die a few times before you can really
live.”

* “The problem with the world is that the intelligent people are full of doubts, while the stupid ones are full of confidence.”

* “My ambition is handicapped by laziness”

* “Real loneliness is not necessarily limited to when you are alone.”

* “You begin saving the world by saving one man at a time; all else is grandiose romanticism or politics.”

* “Life's as kind as you let it be.”

*“Things get bad for all of us, almost continually, and what we do under the constant stress reveals who/what we are.”

* “She's mad, but she's magic. There's no lie in her fire.”

* “The difference between a democracy and a dictatorship is that in a democracy you vote first and take orders later; in a dictatorship, you don't have to waste your time voting”

* “We are here to laugh at the odds and live our lives so well that Death will tremble to take us.”

* “If you have the ability to love, love yourself first.”

* “Understand me. I’m not like an ordinary world. I have my madness, I live in another dimension and I do not have time for things that have no soul.”

* “Goodness can be found sometimes in the middle of hell.”

I crave a love so deep, the ocean would be jealous.
- Pablo Neruda

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I'll Be Your Baby Tonight~ Kris Kristofferson

Close your eyes, close the door

You don’t have to worry anymore

I’ll be your baby tonight

Shut the light, shut the shade

You don’t have to be afraid

I’ll be your baby tonight

Well, that mockingbird’s gonna sail away

We’re gonna forget it

That big, fat moon is gonna shine like a spoon

But we’re gonna let it

You won’t regret it

Kick your shoes off, do not fear

Bring that bottle over here

I’ll be your baby tonight

If you have encountered me at dawn, you must encounter me once more, for by dusk, I have become a different person...

~Random Expressions

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He possessed a delightful blend of mischievousness and affection. Kind and considerate, he had a knack for remembering the little things and always watching out for me. He was adept at lifting my spirits and never settled for calling me simply "pretty," always opting for "gorgeous" or "beautiful." His joy came from seeing the smile on my face, valuing it far more than any physical aspect. He possessed an innate understanding of my needs, sparing me the burden of explanation. He embodied a gentleman's grace but knew when to set it aside, transitioning seamlessly from friend to lover, from saint to sinner. He exuded a mature masculinity, naturally assuming the role without needing to be placed on a pedestal. He was a beautiful, authentic soul, a free fucking spirit I was thankful to know. 

* Long Time ~ Blondie ~ Pollinator
* Sunday Kind Of Love ~ Etta James ~ At Last
* Sunday Bloody Sunday~ U2 ~ War
* Sunday Morning ~ Velvet Underground ~ The Velvet Underground & Nico 45th Anniversary 
* Hell In A Bucket ~ Grateful Dead ~ The Very Best Of The Grateful Dead
* Flower Power ~ Greta Van Fleet ~ From The Fires
* Hearts And Bones ~ Paul Simon ~ The Essential Paul Simon
* Simple Twist Of Fate ~ Bob Dylan~ Blood On The Tracks
* The Beautiful Ones ~ Prince ~ Purple Rain
* Happiness Is A Warm Gun ~ The Beatles ~ The Beales

Simple Twist Of Fate ~ Bob Dylan

They sat together in the park
As the evening sky grew dark
She looked at him and he felt a spark tingle to his bones
It was then he felt alone and wished that he'd gone straight
And watched out for a simple twist of fate.

They walked alone by the old canal
A little confused I remember well
And stopped into a strange hotel with a neon burning bright
He felt the heat of the night hit him like a freight train
Moving with a simple twist of fate.

A saxophone someplace far off played
As she was walking on by the arcade
As the light bust through a-beat-up shade where he was waking up
She dropped a coin into the cup of a blind man at the gate
And forgot about a simple twist of fate.

He woke up the room was bare
He didn't see her anywhere
He told himself he didn't care pushed the window open wide
Felt an emptiness inside to which he just could not relate
Brought on by a simple twist of fate.

He hears the ticking of the clocks
And walks along with a parrot that talks
Hunts her down by the waterfront docks where the sailers all come in
Maybe she'll pick him out again how long must he wait
One more time for a simple twist of fate.

People tell me it's a sin
To know and feel too much within
I still believe she was my twin but I lost the ring
She was born in spring but I was born too late
Blame it on a simple twist of fate.

I kiss him with longing, with urgency, with desperation. I kiss him full of language and words. I kiss him with hunger, prayer, and greed. I kiss him with my hands. With nails with teeth. Need. I kiss him pulling him closer. No distance. No space. No ending. I kiss him with the intention of never stopping. With the intention of surviving only on his breath. I kiss him full of forevers and right nows.

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