It has been way too long...... It is almost as though this fantastic part of myself has left my core.... almost to extinction! I chose to put away the whip, step to the side and free my lioness from the boundaries and restraints of the territory, close and secure the cage door, and cover the cage with the finest silk bathed in lavender. I did so for the sake of my lioness. I did so because the devotion to her surpasses the desire to dominate... I did so to preserve the bond that has been forged in trust, openness and the safety that comes with free space. I did so because what is required of me now has transcended far beyond what this part of me could offer. She has always been far more to me than contracts, amendments and technical terms, she has been the light to my darkness. She has been the grace that calms rage within me. She has been the empath to my apathy....
When the eclipse of elements far beyond our capacity of control stole the core of her.... stealing pieces of that light, of that grace and empathy... Leaving her in a wake of emotions that shattered the stain glass mural that once was her life... my life,... our life. When she came to me with her truth, vulnerable to my alter ego's ability to flip the switch and go dark... Fearing I would not tolerate a world that left this part for extinction, fearing I would not evolve to who and what she needed... what was I to do? Was I to forsake my territorial guardianship, leave the pride for another landscape??? That never was and never will be an option.... When my queen chose me, claimed me and branded me... she abolished the primal instinctual desire for me to roam.. I am hers.
Let there be no confusion... I was her dom and she my sub... It was I that marked my territory, clenching my queen's neck between my k-9s while I took what was deserving of a king ..... yet.... in the light of day, let the truth be spoken about who rules the dark... She... She rules me!! the dark does not overcome the light.... the light gives passage, the light gives consent to the dark so that the light may recharge...
This may all seem like writings of a mad king, stricken down by an acceptance of a fate that was not desired... again let there be no confusion... this king misses their alter ego... misses the calmness that was discovered in calculated assertion. misses the expression in their queen's eyes when pain had engaged her light and engulfed her king in flames......
but this is no mad king, sanity is intact and serenity is blooming...... Some how her serving me her vulnerability like a sacrificial lamb waiting to be devoured by a ravenous lion, exposing her underside to the very beast that thrived on fresh blood... giving me her truth knowing I may deny her for it... some how... some how... that stilled the wild beast.... it quenched the need to feed, the need to bleed..... It gave this lion a chance to be a true king.. to honor full heartedly the lioness as their queen.. to put her above them.. to server her, protect her....
I am hers, I have been hers long before I entered this life and I will remain hers for as many lives as the universe allows.... What ever transformations she requires of her king.. I shall achieve... To my queen....TWMA... WWF... IFLY....
