I don't know what is with this year - first my ex nearly makes me homeless then I think I find stable ground moving back in with my family only for all 3 of them to nearly throw me on the streets twice in a week
My brother has been spiraling for several weeks now but claims it isn't his fault and is some how my fault when we barely interact and all I do on a regular basis is sleep, apply for jobs, go back to sleep and try to set up interviews
He also tried to gaslight me into telling me that my bleeding issues aren't real when it's been documented medical history since I was 18
I admit that yes, I got upset on two different occasions in 7 months and that was it, and it was only between me and my mom and we already talked stuff out and worked things out and moved on
But for some reason my brothers took that as a major war crime and constantly use it against me like I'm not allowed to be human, feel things, make mistakes and work on junk
But then Mom said something unforgivable and said I was just as bad as my racist neo nazi psychopathic dad
... I tried asking for specifics but no one could list anything outside "oh you sleep a lot and should help with dishes more"
... I sleep cause the fatigue issues from anemia, this isn't a new thing, I've had it since I was 18
Then I tried asking what was a positive they have with me living here and they also couldn't list anything outside "we like playing board games with you"
... Is that really how little I mean to these people?
I know my family is a mess, but I thought one of them maybe still had humanity left
But seeing as that isn't the case and I had to call the cops on my brother for screaming at our mom
I can't live here anymore
I have no where else to go and I feel like the shelter is my only option
I'm in the East Peoria area of Illinois if anyone would like to adopt a kitty, I'm still good with manners, chores and other junk despite my family exhausting my soul
And no I'm nothing like my dad, I actively try my hardest to be everything he never wanted me to be like inclusive and multitheistic and kind to others????
I'm a better person because I genuinely hate his guts and never want to be like him