Meeting new people drains my energy, but it's something I gotta keep doing cause wow! I haven't had a Dom in ages and I'm ready for one, plus I really wanna make new friends 😂
Man, I miss that feeling you have when the person you love loves you back, when someone makes you feel special and you know they actually mean it, when they give you a hug after not seeing you for a while and you can tell how much they missed you ❤
I think meeting new people drains my energy cause I always see how people act before I show the real me, but I guess most people do the same. No one likes to seem too boring, too "open" or too much and I think that's my biggest fear, being too much for people.
I talk a lot 😂😂 specially when I'm nervous, I even have a nervous laugh whenever someone's mad at me, I think I can be funny, I'm super open about my emotions so I talk about them but then worry I might seem too eager.
We're all afraid of rejection even if we face it every single day. Here comes a downer momen, get ready... I've only loved two men in my life and when I was finally letting my guard down the relationships ended, so yes I'm afraid of being there again. I've had constant nightmares when meeting someone new, nightmares where they reject me over and over and treat me with no human decency, but I'm glad in real life I'm strong enough to remove myself from whenever I'm not wanted/needed.
Talking about this, specially now when ghosting is so common makes me feel less alone.