So today I talked to another sub. It was amazing to be able to talk to another woman that was new and feeling the same way I do. This lifestyle is not an easy road. But I honestly think it’s worth the drive. I see the vanilla lifestyle and I’ve endured it. I have only read blogs and books about this lifestyle and well it’s what I want. It’s what I crave and need.
is it what I’m going to get? I don’t know. Is it worth fighting for, waiting for. That’s an easy answer. YES!!!!!
Is it going to be an easy road to take. No I am going to have ups and downs. Hello it’s life so yes I’m going to have ups and downs.
but what I will tell you is I will be thankful that I found this website. I will be thankful for 95% of the people I’ve meet on here. I will love the few that I have gotten close to. I will keep my hope and my faith, that my time will come to meet my Dom.
now what am I waiting for and fighting for. Well this lifestyle to me means trust. And that’s a funny thing for me to say because I have the worst case of DTA “don’t trust anyone” anyone could ever imagine. But I meet someone on here no it didn’t work out. That’s not what’s important what is important is I trusted. For the first time in my life I trusted and I wasn’t let down For my trusting him. I could send him a message and ask him a question and he will still answer. And I will trust his answer. I would trust him to do all of this kinky dangerous stuff to me. Not sure what I like or don’t like so yup that to me is trust. That one word is this lifestyle to me. “TRUST”
that is a very big word in this lifestyle. Yes there is more to it I know that. But trust is a very big word. Do I just want to have sex god I’m contradiction YES I want sex but with the right person. With the right Dom. And when I do I promise him and I will answer the wise old owls answer. How many licks to get to the center of the tootsie pop??????