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Accessional diary of a dyslexic dom.

Any old nonsence that comes into my head really (isn't that basicly what a blog is?)
14 hours ago. Tue 19 Nov 2019 05:54:25 PM IST

Wow, this site is like an oasis of calm and common sense. Someone pointed out to me that by clicking public (on facebook this is) I can effect the political debate. It is only two weeks to the election and I feel that I have to do this as much as I can. I am not kidding my self that I am achieving anything, in fact I am fairly sure that I am not. I am not really sure if my shares are even really going public. I click public but I don't know what happens next. Maybe it still just goes to my ten friends. But I just feel that I have to at least try.

 

Mostly I try to keep politics off my blog. On the other hand my blog is about me and this is just what I am doing for a while. This election could be the most important political event ever in the UK. On the other hand we might just get a hung parliament.

 

But man some of these people are stupid. So so stupid.

 

 

Other stuff: Sub play partner (or not) continues to ghost me. I think she might not be using the sight any more. Friend (who I argued with) I think that one of us is blanking the other but I could not say which. Certainly life is less stressful without her (or would be if not for all this fucking politics).

3 days ago. Sun 17 Nov 2019 02:45:08 AM IST

Someone ells just reminded me of this. In my late twenties I worked (I think it was about three years) as a pizza chef / delivery driver / counter person and so on. It was a very small store so some of us just had to do a bit of everything, I hated it. It had two owners, the first coned the second into buying the place When he realised how much money he was loosing. The second was too egotistical to consider that he might fail to turn the business around, and end up loosing his shirt, which is what happened. He was a crook, he paid us sod all and then was all ways looking for ways to rip us off.

 

I was pretty miserable the hole time. Most of the other staff were in there 20s so I did not really make any friends, and I think because of the hours I worked I did not have much of a social life outside of work (plus I no money). The staff were all useless. One gye used to role the dough into the shape of a giant penes, and walked around the store with one end of it sticking out of his flies. (If you like pizza, I doughty if this happens in many shops, if for no other reason, because most of them bye in ready made bases. See you learnt something).

 

There is probably more I could say about all that but I have either forgotten or repressed most off it. I went on to study catering and worked as a chef for six years. (I did not like that much either). Then my health went to peaces and I could not do much of anything for a while.

 

My advice to the youth of today: Whatever you are doing, be thankful that you are not in the catering trade, because catering is even worse than whatever you are doing. If you are in the catering trade then you probably will not be reading this anyway, because you will have just finished a twenty hour shift, and have to be back to do another one in six hours and just want to get two and a half hours sleep in between (I exaggerate but really not all that much). 

5 days ago. Fri 15 Nov 2019 06:09:10 AM IST

Am I the only one who finds that loneliness and a kind of very relaxing calm go hand in hand?

 

and with the cold weather, If it was not for the insomnia, I would almost feel like I could hibernate.

6 days ago. Wed 13 Nov 2019 01:20:12 PM IST

So, I fell out with a friend yesterday. I am not really sure what about, some silly fucking nonsense, but for the first time I am quite glad. I am a bit frightened of becoming a complete recluse, but in other ways quite happy about it. She is a very stressful person to be around. Life is so peaceful for a few weeks after we fall out.

 

My sub is ghosting me. I thought it was going quite well. 

 

My paintings seem pointless and clumsy.

 

Cold weather and politics are stressing me out.

 

What is the fucking point? 

1 week ago. Fri 08 Nov 2019 08:39:10 PM IST

Last night I went to see Whole Lotta Led, A Led Zeppelin cover band. I know, when I first heard of cover bands it sounded terrible but they are really very good. Very tight and good musicians, why they don't create there own identity I can not imagine, but they were very good. Apparently they have been doing Led Zeppelins for twenty years.

 

I have reached a point in life where I have to sit down for part of the gig. I did dance for quite a lot of it. I slept very well last night, but I woke up in pain this morning. 

1 week ago. Wed 06 Nov 2019 09:07:59 AM IST

So my cold is almost gone and my gout has cleared up, at least for the moment. Sleep is still a problem though. I might have said all this before but it is quite interesting, for anyone who did not read it last time. I am not an insomniac in the normal sense. I can sleep hole days away sometimes, but I can not sleep during the times that I really want to. Then I crash out (sometimes literally) when I really need to be awake. Since Sunday night, in fact, I have been almost nocturnal. I can not get any pills until Friday and even then I am not sure if they will work. Being nocturnal is very inconvenient at times, otherwise I would probably just give in and stay like that.

 

As far as I can tell it is going very well with my new sub. A while back she said that she had to take a break because of a futility. I thought she was just making an excuse and I did not expect to hear from her again, but I was just being paranoid and she was back after a couple of weeks. Don't get me wrong, she is the first to stick with me for more than a week. I was close to giving up and I am really very happy about it. She is very compliant and willing and much better looking than I have any right to expect. But if I am honest I am finding the experience a bit dry. It is fun and all but so far I am not finding it a deeply erotic experience or emotional in any way. But it is still early. Give it time I suppose.

 

Online play / training is probably not much compared to real life, but I think it is a chance for me to learn things and try things out. Also, because of my health, it might be the best that I can hope for.

 

Not much ells happening. I am getting some new furniture, because my mum is selling her house, and it is nice, rustic, wooden stuff. Thats all folks. 

2 weeks ago. Sun 03 Nov 2019 09:56:58 PM IST

Sick and tired

 

Tired and sick, and nothing really new to say on the subject (if you think you'r bored of the subject, think how I feel).

 

I hate to miss my class on Monday morning, but I think I might this week.

2 weeks ago. Sat 02 Nov 2019 03:12:14 PM IST

I was talking to a friend, last night, about the hole BDSM thing, and she mentioned that rock climbing is quite erotic (indoor rock climbing that is. With real life rock climbing the cold and the fear of imminent death possibly kills the mood). Theres ropes and all kinds of "restraints" and leather things. It might be a poor substitute for real rigging, but has anyone tried it, just curies.

2 weeks ago. Wed 30 Oct 2019 10:54:49 PM IST

Record / CD shop in Bath today, I bought three vinyl records: The kinks, Chuck Berry and Kid Creole and the Coconuts. Kid Creole is one of the things that I like but I feel that I shouldn't, but actually they are very good. I am not really sure how you would define them in terms of era.

3 weeks ago. Mon 28 Oct 2019 04:46:49 PM IST

I just came across a profile (on a different site) that requested "fun and excrement in the bed room". I hope it was a typo, but if not, well each to there own.