Closing my eyes
looking for your face
it's dark
Listening for your voice
no soothing sounds
no words
Trying to feel your touch
nothing but space
feeling cold
No beating heart
No flutters
Sadness trapped in my heart
Chaos trapped in my thoughts
So much lost time and love
Everyone needs kindness in their lives. I'm always doing my best to be kind and positive but sometimes the darkness creeps in. For some of us the holidays are hardest. The darkness stays longer, the loneliness takes over, and it's really hard to be upbeat. Today I received a very kind email from a stranger. Something so simple lifted my heart.
Be kind to others, remember that holidays aren't joyful for everyone. Wave to a stranger, hold open a door. Say kind words.
Not sure why I'm just now writing this, but these are my thoughts.
Sub and Dom:
Set personal goals for yourself. Ask your Dominant to help. Do it together.
Set expectations for your dynamic and hold each other to them. When you say you're going to do something, do it.
Mistakes happen, but saying you're sorry only really means something the first time. After that it's meaningless.
When you don't understand something, ask for clarity. Misunderstandings cause chaos.
Be honest and don't take advantage of what is being offered. Some of us have big hearts and others take without giving.
This arrangement is sometimes only BDSM and sometimes it includes more of a relationship. That wording is iffy, sorry. Make sure you both have a clear direction. Half falling in love, is also half not. It sucks and hurts like hell, so be clear.
LDR in this world is not easy and it's not for everyone. You have a commitment, yet are physically alone. Give it your best, give everyday your all. It's OK if it's not for you.
Lastly, be true to yourself and your needs. You deserve the very best possible in life. Believe it, live it.
Through the sky into your arms
Feeling your skin against mine
Your lips upon my lips
Your taste across my tongue
The sting of your bite that drives me wild
Your cock pushing deep beyond its depth
The soreness that lingers
Begging you for more
Promising not to move away, but closer
Who am I? I am Yours
Who do I belong to? Daddy
Know your worth. Don't let people take advantage of you. Feel respected, feel valued, feel taken care of, feel loved, feel happy. Above all else....be You. Don't settle for less than Everything!
Missing the warmth of His smile
His eyes darkening with desire
The weight of His body on mine
The taste of His kiss
I miss Him filling my heart with joy
Feeling like I'm His
His priority
His happiness
HIS
Being a submissive is sometimes such an emotional rollercoaster. In my first 49 years of life, I was not emotional. Furthest from it. Repeatedly proven and reminded so. I had a wall erected so high that I was the only one behind it.
These past 15 months or so, I have fully embraced who I am. That brought forth the vulnerability of my heart being in control. It's a love hate relationship right now. My mind seeks the love, attention, and soul of my other half. The dream of our hearts syncing as One.
I have to believe that time in my life will happen. Never giving up hope.
Who knew how hard it would be to feel being loved again. Having that special man guide me, and holding my hand beyond difficult times into the joy of Our life. To feel Daddy's arms wrapped around me, keeping me safe, chasing my fears away. Seeing the need in His eyes when I stand before him, knowing only I can quench His thirst. Finding every opportunity to show Him that He is my world, the one I look up to, admire, respect, and follow.
Who knew....
Is to hear You call me babygirl
To feel Your arms around me
To know I am all You need
To hear the phone ringing knowing it's You
To start and finish Our day together
To hear from You during my day because You miss me
To know I am enough for You
To feel Your love in every breath I take
The taste of Your lips
All I really need is...
YOU
This last year was a tough one. Relationships and friendships ending. Life changing directions by choice and sometimes not by choice. Sometimes we struggle with these changes. I've been fighting some realities for a while now but over the past few months, instead of fighting them, I'm working with them. If I can't change them, I'll make the best of them. I've welcomed some amazing people into my life who make my days brighter. I hope I do the same for them.
Hug those you love, be kind to those around you, and open your heart to the love and kindness you receive so you can give it back.