Beginnings

Friends in our lives make every day beautiful. Then there are those friends we are lucky to find that we love. The relationship goes much deeper than most. You look forward to talking with them all day long. When you can't sleep at wee hours in the morning, they are there to keep you company. You fight, get sad and cry together. Then you realize your friendship just grew deeper. Everyday you learn something new about each other and that's the best part! I call you a "brat" and you return with "jack ass". Our odd terms of endearment that make us laugh.

You read my profile and reached out thinking we could connect and become good friends. I'm here to tell you I'm forever grateful you did.

Value your friends and tell them just how much they mean to you. Don't take advantage of each other. Be there to support each other and lift them up when they need you the most.

Make each other better people because of each other

Big changes happened in my life a few weeks ago.  That's a past blog. Thirty five pounds down,  system(body and mind) teardown and rebuild.

The two parts I cannot control are my sleep patterns and emotions. I haven't slept more than 3 1/2 in a single night. I'm sure that's why my emotions break down when I least expect it.

I woke up this morning with less than normal sleep (2 1/2 hrs). That's ok, I can do this (daily mantra). I get to school and everything is going well. By 11:00 my chest is heavy and I swear tears are ready to fall. I have a few suspicions on why the mood has changed but it's never changed this quickly and this drastic. 

I think this is where having a Dom/Master helps channel these things that we can't control. Someone to help break down these unhealthy patterns that sneak in. 

Someone stronger than I can be. 

Sometimes we want our reality to be more like our dreams. My dream is perfect, my reality not so. Dreams give our reality hope. It's what our minds conjure, giving us goals to seek. But sometimes our dreams fill our minds with unobtainable goals. How do we balance our dreams with our reality? Is that balance then considered a compromise or settling for less than perfect?

I want OUR dreams to become OUR reality.

*Disclaimer- I don't sleep full nights,  so after 4hrs.of typical sleep, this is where my mind wanders to. 

In my dream....

We are cherished

In my dream....

We are loved

In my dream....

We feel complete

In my dream....

We are one

In my dream....

We worship each other

In my dream....

We make love

In my dream....

You are my Master

In my dream....

I am your sub

In my dream....

You control me

In my dream....

I give myself freely

Then I wake up...

I've met some truly amazing people here and have been slowly trying to find my way, hence ClosetSub. Thanks to an amazing person in my life and some crazy fun women, my door has fully opened. No longer uneasy with my kinks, or my sexual appetites, I'm finally able to take a deep breath and be me. Last night on the train 😀 with the girls, was my first moment of being me in this group. It was only fitting that they all were a part of me changing my profile name. ClosetSub is no longer appropriate for this girl. I'm a sub and proud of it, SoaringFree!

So I'm sure you'll see me more active and playful. Feel free to say Hello when passing by.

This song is near and dear to my heart. Beautiful words. Hopefully others will enjoy.