Shower thoughts 1/24/24
So here I am, sitting in my garage with some of my favorite reggae on, my mood lights on and my dog curled up by my feet.
What do we expect from other people? Do we expect the same amount of trust, love, loyalty etc. that we show them in return? Do we expect nothing? Do we expect more from them than we do of ourselves?
I don't think it's the same for everyone. There's loads of people in my life I expect absolutely nothing from. There's plenty that Ive helped and expected nothing in return for. I love helping others, down to the very core of who I am.
There's people I expect more from than myself as well. There's always people more educated, that have better skills than you do or are in a higher position than you.
The people I care most deeply about I expect the same from that I give them. The same love, trust, loyalty and respect. For those people, I will always defend them in the room they're not in. For the people that are malicious towards them or they are speaking ill of them behind their backs, those people are removed from my life. I don't need people in my life that are going to disparage the people that i care about. But time and time again this burns me. I'm proven wrong each and every time. People will serve themselves over you every time. No matter what, no matter what you would do for them or have done for them. I should have learned by now but I haven't. I should be numb at this point. But I guess I hold on just a little too tight and fly a little too close to the sun