I sit and wait.
I sit and wait, to figure myself out. What is it that I want? Is it love? Is it BDSM? And if it is, do I want a dom male? Dom woman? A sub, perhaps? What will I enjoy most? Or am I looking for commitment, which brings me back to: love. Love may be a one word, but it’s meaning is huge. It can be a love between a couple, friendship love, love that someone has for a hobby, love that reflects by the smile. Which of these do I desire most? Do I desire to be the best of me by myself for myself, or perhaps I do it for someone else? Do I really like sex, or am I just running away from my problems? By sitting here and thinking, am I running away from doing? Are there going to be any answers? I’ll sit and wait, for as long as it takes, I’ll wait.