Adventures with one's soul

Random thoughts that may or may not flow, but all add up the adventures to one's soul.

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5 years ago. June 9, 2019 at 4:34 PM

I want to thank all the wonderful people on here who took their time to read my blog and the friendships that I started to develop.

With that being said I'm not sure if I will continue on the cage.

I started reading the blogs so that I could better understand the Doms perspective so that I could be the best sub that I could be for my Sir.

The blogging started because during researching and learning more about the lifestyle. I saw how subs kept journals or their Doms assigned them writhing task. So I began these, and they became a daily read to my Sir.

He encouraged me to keep doing them and get back into my writing. Even though he wished that I continue to blog here..

Right now I'm not sure that I emotionally could handle that at this moment.

I have thought about writing about this chapter in my life as it was a beautiful chapter. If I do so I will most likely share that here.

He has told me that I should continue in the lifestyle because he says that I am a really good sub, but to be honest it took me 2 years to get to the point of allowing myself to submit.. Like I previously said I did the research to better myself, but because I wanted to be my best self for him. Not a random person but the man I had known a long time and are friends.

I am leaving my profile as is, because I am not looking for another and as I told him last night. I don't want another one and even though he says he sees that the lifestyle is part of me... I'm not ready nor do I know if I will continue in the lifestyle..

This was something truly special for me that we shared.

Sweet Ginger(sub female){⚓ } - Hugz 💗 we all grown at our own pace and in the end, although your Sir can and should guide you, the final choices are your own.. If you like you can mail me.. I think most of us have wanted or needed to step back at some point in our journey, self reflection is good, even though it may not seem so at the moment, it's when we have our opportunities to grow.. I encourage you if nothing else to continue to journal whether here or in private, it will help gain insight and you can look back at your progress in time.. Best wishes 💗

5 years ago

Angelnthedark(switch female) - Thank you so much! I will continue to write..
I made him that promise..i just know that I most likely will not trust anyone enough to be my Dom. Nor can I offer my submission to anyone..
I did not give it to my Sir lightly and there was a certian level of friendship and intimacy before we even got to the official life style stuff. Yes I naturally did things in the beginning. Like sit at his feet. It just came natural for me to do that with him, but it is not typical of me.
And I know that I will not be able to give someone else my submission because I will need to be able to fully release and that will take me a while.

5 years ago

HGB(sub female){Scottish M} - To truly be with one it does and should take time. After my long screwed up marriage I thought I would never love again, be sexual with anyone ever again. Well it took time. It's had been 2 years before I could trust again and it was slow. Your not there now, nor should you be. That's called a rebound. Don't do that. Please. All good relationships take time. Become friends with people even Doms. Become friends before sexual talk happens. Live your life for YOU. Take care of you. I'm here for you.

5 years ago

Angelnthedark(switch female) - Thanks darling. Yeah before my sir it took me 4 yrs and a really good guy friend to help me heal from a 10 yr abusive relationship which I was extremely hard on myself for being in because I had been in a 5 year abusive relationship with my children's father before that... So that is why I don't want another Dom.. My relationship with Sir was/is so special to me. It's hard to explain there was/ is such a deeper and higher connection with him. Something I don't and won't give anyone..

5 years ago

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Adventures with one's soul

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