(no sleep 2nd night in a row, let's see if this makes sense)
I have heard that the world usually gives back to us, what we expect. Not what we want or need or deserve, what we expect. So even if we want good things and feel that we deserve good things, if we expect to have hard times, we're probably going to end up having hard times. Of course, I don't think things work quite like that but what we expect does color how we view what we have and what we get. I mean yes, bad shit happens. But a lot of whether we have a "good" life or "happy" life comes down to perspective.
I believe a I've made a valid point in there somewhere (laughs). And if you actually made it this far, I applaud your tenacity. Hopefully I'll sleep tonight and until then, maybe no more writing...