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Here i go again down the road. What am I looking for? I don't know anymore. Why look when there is nothing passed this darkness. For me but more darkness. I feel myself slipping back in time. When I was a child when I could not imagine that. This world could be like it is. How far i have come. I still don't know shit. I am learning every day. How dark my soul really is. I find myself looking back at a time. When i was innocent. When i was pure. What the hell happen. To those times? I am finding myself starting to lose myself and not really caring about anything like I was did. What is wrong with me. I can feel my heart growing darker and blacker with each passing minute. My will is not faltine my spirit is still strong. But yet i can't see the light anymore. Its like poof it's gone. Has it always been gone and i now just notice it. Or has it been over time going darker. I use to try to see the best in people. Now i can't even see the best in me. Where did I go ? When am I going to return? These are some good questions. Is this all because of the demon in side of me or has it just been me all along. I can feel him waiting lurking. To see cracks in my will power that keeps him at bay. I use to see everything in color but now all I can see is the darkness. Some say I need to get my head checked out. I always say why I know I'm insane. Now I'm wondering if this is just a story I'm writing or is it just me. I can't be sure anymore.