I am struggling with something that is really confusing.
I want a loving Commited relationship were both parties trust, respect and treat each other with care and dignity.
At the same time I want to be tied up and used to satisfy his needs. with no rights or choice of my own. Just a thing for him to use as he desires.
How can these two co-exist?
I meet someone who wants to use me but they don't respect me or care about me outside of wanting to use me as a sex toy.
Or I will meet someone who is sweet and respects me, but doesn't want to own or treat me like an object.
Its like I cant have one with out the other and its driving me coocoo for cocoa puffs.
There is like a razor fine line that I dont know how to balance on.
How can I bring these to sides of me into harmony?