2 years ago. Thursday, October 26, 2023 at 7:41 PM
Shame is something I have recently been exploring within myself. Where it comes from, what triggers it, how it has impacted my life.
There was a belief behind this… a drive. If I could overcome feeling shame I’d be free. Free from caring about judgement.
It occurred to me this morning whilst reading a book from one of my favourite authors, that perhaps we never overcome shame… and perhaps we don’t need to. Maybe it’s in the acceptance of the discomfort of the shame that comes up when we truly bare ourselves to another, that we find peace. Maybe it’s the shame itself that indicates that we truly are being vulnerable. That uncomfortable feeling of being exposed.
Just some thoughts.
Let’s hear it for the Men who face their demons.
Let’s hear it for the Men who can sit with discomfort.
Let’s hear it for the Men who’ve let go of FOMO.
Let’s hear it for the Men who want to do the work…
I see you. Thank you ?
When we are young, it’s the illusion of perfection that we fall in love with.
As we age, it’s the humanness that we fall in love with- the poignant stories of overcoming, the depthful vulnerability of aging, the struggles that grew us in karmic stature, the way a soul shaped itself to accommodate its circumstances.
With less energy to hold up our armor, we are revealed and, in the revealing, we call out to each other’s hearts.
Where before wounds turned us off, they are now revealed as proof that God exists.
Where we once saw imperfect scars, we now see evidence of a life fully lived.
~Jeff Brown~
Just because she’s timid and shy,
doesn’t mean she’s not perverted.
Just because she cries freely,
doesn’t mean she doesn’t want to hurt.
Just because she has a tender heart,
doesn’t mean she doesn’t crave cruelty.
Just because she seems like she might break,
doesn’t mean she’s scared of the darkness.
She can’t compartmentalise.
Offering everything.
All that can be seen, yet so much more.
So, why does that make you afraid of her?
Or, for her?
Can those realms not be explored together?
For some reason the way she is seems to make people want to love and protect her.
She loves that.
But she still needs a Monster.
So, if you’re going to be the One to protect her from the monsters… then she needs it to be You.
https://thecage.co/https://images.thecage.co/static/no-image-found.pngAlthough I’d say my ass isn’t a great feature of mine ?, for the sake of a fun challenge, here it is:
and what would life be without some lovely bruises to accompany an ass?!:
*not my writing*
I’m telling you
she does not belong.
Not to one person,
not to one place,
not to one set of ideals.
Her mind changed her heart,
which changed her mind.
She was nothing
if not completely free.
Maybe we’re just afraid of anyone constantly searching.
Anything that didn’t clip her wings
or make her feel caged
was exactly where she was meant to be.
You’ve got to respect the things unafraid of going off path.
And she would always be the type
to lose herself
trying to find her own ways.
I suppose the river doesn’t compete with the earth,
it carves its own path.
It doesn’t brag,
or boast,
or beat its chest.
It just flows.
And the moon doesn’t try to outshine the stars.
It just glows.
The flowers
amidst the trees
which radiate and uphold life,
they only grow.
She wasn’t free because she knew where she was going.
She was free because she didn’t need to know.
J. Raymond
From Spades/Let Her Run.
It feels like I’m transitioning from girlhood into womanhood.
(being a woman is unsafe)
And to be honest, I’m feeling quite lost.
(what will happen to me?)
At first it felt like something was being taken from me without choice.
(I’m not ready)
My youth.
(what other value do I have?)
However, now it feels like I’m swept up in a current that is both exciting and terrifying.
(where does this lead to?)
And… very lonely.
(I’m scared)
There are desires rising so strongly, yet no guidance on how to embrace them.
(so few women who inspire me)
The Self I’ve called home for so long no longer fits.
(I can’t hide there anymore)
It’s small and uncomfortable.
(everything wants to keep me small)
I have outgrown it.
(everything about it is safe and familiar)
I was introduced to this cover recently and it really struck me:
List 3 things about yourself most people dont know:
1. In another lifetime I was a ranked professional swimmer.
2. In yet another lifetime I hand-raised a wombat.
3. One of my most favourite things to do is observe. Be it laying on the ground observing nature, or sitting in a bustling town centre observing people. I simply love basking in all of the information of life we are surrounded by.
