First experience

I love this lifestyle! There are so many ppl with all different backgrounds and for the longest I contemplated sharing my beliefs I think it was my first experience that made it clear to me that vanilla just won’t do....
.Ive always felt like I was into these things since I was a kid, but I can say I was sure at 18. Before 18 I didn’t have any experience just curiosity and the internet lol. Like any normal kid I found the hidden stash of unlabeled tapes , and popped one into the vcr completely unaware of what I would see. The women were older , and I want to see women younger. The internet solved this problem, but my interests had heighten at this point so I began to look at fetishes. I became infatuated with Bdsm and all forms of spanking . It was strange a first, being fascinated with spanking models and the lifestyle. I wanted to become a dominant or a master, but I had no idea how to attract submissive women. To be honest, I considered my self shy I didn’t really know how to attract any women. My first real experience was with an ex I met the summer I graduated high school. She enjoyed being bratty, and often hinted at being disciplined. What I didn’t realize was her level of experience. We had become very comfortable with each other one night , and she took me by complete surprise. She laid across my lap and told me that she had been neglecting her studies and need to be disciplined. I was hesitant at first, just due to the fact that I took her brattiness as flirting, but I quickly realized that she was serious. So I began to spank her on top of her jeans slowly with a relatively little amount of force. After several swats she stopped me for a second and asked me if anything was wrong . I was silent for a second trying to gather my words, but before I could say anything she quickly sat up and lowered her pants. She laid back across my lap with a smile, and I proceed to spank her with confidence....I appreciate all of her encouragements my 1st time was great !