Sub Steam

I miss you tonight, but I always miss you when your gone. I look back at the time we spent from the moment we first met (here) living this relationship long distance to where we have made it to and I don't know how I ever made it not having you beside me each night. The days and nights were so long waiting for your calls and texts while we both lived our lives together but still so separately. The last two years have been such a change and absolutely amazing. No, not all peaches and cream I know. They have been worth every minute though Daddy. These two weekends I'm alone every month, remind me of those days, going to bed and waking without you, make me appreciate the road we have traveled. The over the phone playtime, the intense play sessions we would have those cherished two weekends a month, the connection that we couldn't ignore, all those just made my heart stronger. I never wanted to love you, I had no expectations of you genuinely loving me and I think that's why I fell so hard. We started this relationship with honesty, complete and brutal. Limits were known, the "what ifs" were vocalized, expectations were clear and not obscured by feelings and complications. It was a contractual clearly defined relationship. You had no intention on getting married nor did I, we wanted a connection with each other but not love. I think it was that openness and honesty that I fell in love with. Your charm helped, of course, that and the fact that we were open sexually about what we both wanted. I was honest about what I would do and not do, although there isn't much is there lol. And you were clear about your expectations. We matched because of that honesty, because we were both over the games, hidden agenda's, and trying to impress someone. I needed your guidance, your kindness, your structure, your unwavering sense of strength. When you popped up on my screen that night 3 years ago I was a very broken person, at least I thought I was. It was you that showed me my own strength. I never dreamed I would feel safe submitting to anyone, but it was you. Its always been you. With you its natural, and I have cold chills running down my entire body just writing about it. We may be exhausted most of the time, our lives are excruciatingly busy but I love that I still have the desire to put on whatever little outfit your in the mood for (or surprising you) when we can get the timing right. I love that you still make me so wet just thinking about being with you, and that when your in bed with me no matter evening or morning I'm always ready for you when you need me. It still blows my mind that we met like this, with a particular relationship in mind, then an 8 year plan on moving in together lol, only to end up married and completely in love and still living this dream of a lifestyle. Its been a learning curve for both of us (I know I'm not easy to live with or even love) We have made mistakes and we have learned from them. You are still my rock, my strength, my constant, and infinitely my Daddy. I miss your touch tonight, your arms around me, your fuzzy chest against me, your lips on the back of my neck, and the way your legs tangle into mine. I miss the way your rough warm hands feel on my body. The way you tell me goodnight. I know your sleeping and I know this is long, but it was over due. This site got us together and I still cherish our blogs, the written journey of "us", the reminder of where we started. I love you Daddy. Sleep sweet.