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Thoughts of a Lonely Fat Girl

Writings I have done lately as I continue to learn and experience this lifestyle as a fat (some may say BBW) little and masochistic submissive. Please enjoy reading and I welcome comments and helping critiques.
4 years ago. July 5, 2019 at 3:19 AM

Well, it’s happened once again. The Lonely Fat Girl is single and looking once again. Daddy said so many words. He made so many promises. They were all empty. Daddy said he loved her. He even promised unconditional love. He said he was thinking about their future. He said he wanted nothing more than to be with her. She gave up someone else for him. She believed Daddy’s words. She thought he cared. She thought she was making the right choice. But instead Daddy hurt her. He started giving her less and less. He started showing how little he really cared about her. Daddy’s representative left and the true Daddy showed. Daddy abandoned her like so many men before him. The lonely fat girl had to end it with Daddy. She couldn’t allow him to continue to take advantage of her submission. Daddy had lost the privilege of holding her gift. The lonely fat girl has discovered he is still searching. There he is on Collar Space. He’s looking every day. The lonely fat girl was just another game for him. She never meant anything to him. It’s time to move on. He wasn’t her lifetime Daddy. He was just another man teaching her the lessons of heartache.

The lonely fat girl has been through this time and time again. She is a submissive at heart. It is in her soul. It is her nature. Sure, she is new to the lifestyle. Of course she continues to learn about herself. Discoveries continue every day about how she relates to the world. Why do so many men see submissives as doormats? Why do they see them as prey? Why do they see them as someone they can and should manipulate? Why do so many see this lifestyle as just a game? Or a way to hurt and abuse someone?

The lonely fat girl may be a submissive, but she is far from weak. The lonely fat girl has experienced things she would not wish on her worst enemy and yet she has survived to tell about them. She still puts herself out there to try to find her Daddy. The lonely fat girl desperately wants to be loved by the right man, but she is not so desperate she will accept anyone who calls themselves a dom. She has experienced the sub frenzy. She as been the desperately searching sub who will accept anything which comes her way. She has changed. She has calmed. She has learned. She is strong.

The lonely fat girl has a great deal of respect for this lifestyle and believes wholeheartedly in it. This lifestyle is not just about kinky sex. This lifestyle is about souls connecting. It is about trust and communication. Submission is a gift. A submissive is a strong woman. She knows her heart. She knows what she wants. A submissive knows she needs the guidance. She knows she relishes in the calmness her Dominant provides. She knows she can flourish with rules, and structure, and tasks to complete. A submissive knows she can survive on her own. A submissive chooses to give her heart, soul, mind, and control to her Dominant. A submissive knows when she is owned her Dominant will care for her, will protect her, will provide for her, will help her discover pieces of her she never knew existed.

The lonely fat girl also knows the significance of Domination. Dominance is a gift, just as submission. When a Dominant gives his gift to his submissive, he is agreeing to provide for her, to protect her, to guide her. A Dominant is agreeing to give his heart, soul, and mind to her as well. A Dominant knows she cannot truly submit if he does not give those things to her. A Dominant knows for her to trust him he must let her know every corner of his heart and mind just as she does him. It is not easy to be a Dominant. It takes hard work. It requires lots of time. He must choose her every day just as she must choose him.

The lonely fat girl understands this lifestyle. She understands she is continuing to discover herself. She understands how amazing it can be when she finally finds her forever Daddy. She will continue to search. The walls will keep getting taller. She will be more methodical in how she gives of herself. She will be more intentional with her vetting. But she will continue to search. The lonely fat girl knows her Daddy is out there. She knows she needs to be patient and one day she will find him.

Or maybe it is him who will find her.


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