I know I have to in order to live, so I inhale in short little breaths, then exhale deeply.
trying to cleanse myself
But there is no cleansing. How can you empty yourself?
Could I exhale enough air to dispose of myself and be ... someone else?
I can't face another year, another month, another week, another day, another hour, another minute. How can I make it stop?
It hurts.
I'm just not strong enough.
People say, "God doesn't give you more than you can handle." Never was there a greater lie told to the masses.
If I could handle this, I'd be inhaling and exhaling deeply; strengthening my resolve to move forward.
Yet, that is not the case. The breaths I take are short and stunted. Yearning to be the last; and at the same time knowing the next is coming.
Fuck
It hurts to breathe