1 month ago. August 19, 2022 at 9:14 AM
Partnership can take many forms.
There is no connotation that partner means equal in any or all aspects.
Anyone who does business knows that there are many different types and forms of partnership, and being a partner in a business does not necessitate that you have control, sway, or say in the goings on of the business.
A Limited partnership by definition is one in which one or multiple secondary individuals provide financing for the business, but they do not control the decision making process or goings on of the business.
I'm not going to try and show my VERY LIMITED knowledge of business at this point, because I know for dead sure there are folks on here who could definitely school me on it.
Then there are a million other ways in which that term is used which also apply...
Any activity which requires people to work together is, in my opinion, a partnership.
If I'm a teacher, it only works if my students are willing to do the work in learning. That makes it a partnership.
A boss and employee are in a partnership of a kind. I can't actually FORCE my employees to do their work, it requires their buy in and effort. That is a partnership.
Do my Master and I have a partnership?
HELL YES WE DO.
Actually, I quietly lost my mind when He introduced me as His partner to someone. I literally lost it. I don't want to be His "girlfriend" I'll never be His "girlfriend" that would be a huge step down from what I am. That isnt a brag at all. The point is "girlfriend" to me would definitely connote a vanilla "equal footing" stance, where "partner" means "there is stuff here that is bigger/deeper/ and not explained." It is the way that He acknowledges that I'm not His girlfriend, but I'm His. If He could get away with outright saying: "she's My slave. she's My property. she's Mine." Yeah, He'd do it... but there are times that just isnt appropriate.
But none of this is really about what He says to others, in the end, my level of care for that only goes so deep. (and that's due to baggage from people who took advantage of my submissive nature to do damage there. )
More importantly W/we acknowledge that W/we are a partnership.
THAT is a big and important deal and I want to explain why.
I've heard some people I really respect question whether D/s is a partnership or not... and I feel very strongly that it is. I think you are robbing yourself if you don't look at it that way.
We don't love in Mr. Grey world. MstrJ is not a billionaire. He is a 30 something normal guy (who is the worlds most AMAZING MAN imo, but that's mine to know ;)) He has limited time, limited energy, limited resources, and a normal life.
Guess what! So do I!
I'm a normal woman, I've a normal life, normal responsibilities, normal limitations, and I work in a literal third world country. I'm not rolling in the resources here. I'm resourceful.... but I'm not full of unlimited resources.
Add to that, I've been walking on this rock for closer to 30 than 40 years... I've gotten damaged and nicked and bruised and a bit worn around the edges on my travels. I'm not perfect inside or out.
..... so is He. He is perfectly imperfect. He has been beaten up pretty well on His journey, and is working hard at rubbing off the dust and buffing out the dents.
What's that got to do with partnership?
If you are a billionaire with no constraints on your time, energy, finances, and you have no "baggage" to speak of then you can afford to go and find your perfect little ready made prince/princess doll. Go get a shiny new one out of the box that only needs to have the packaging opened and voila! Good to go!
You need nothing from your toy, aside from to exist. Sit there and look pretty.
Guess what! That shiny new dolly wouldnt have any NEED or DESIRE to be a partner. They get to just be played with. What a glorious life.
That isn't O/our reality. I am VERY okay with that not being O/our reality.
One of the things MstrJ knows about me is that I get a lot of personal satisfaction from "doing very hard thing for Him as a way of showing Him what I would do or go through for Him."
W/we are building a life TOGETHER.
I'm not walking in to *poyfect house and home. DONE!*
I'm not walking in to *poyfect life put it in Instagram. DONE!*
I'm not walking in to flawless specimen of a man hunk who is 100% stable and together 100% of the time, he is a motivational speaker and a guru. DONE!* (I dont even know if that exists, I was struggling to find the person equivalent)
but I wouldn't want any of that.
i LOVE working WITH Him at HIS direction in HIS time and in HIS way to build that *poyfect Home... poyfect for Him and poyfct for U/us*
i LOVE working WITH Him at HIS direction in HIS time and in HIS way to build that *poyfect life.... poyfect for Him and poyfct for U/us*... and part of the perfection there is actually the work that goes into it from BOTH O/our sides. Even the mistakes along the way. I never want to get rid of the chaise lounger that W/we recovered... not when W/we are 80. It is NOT perfect, but W/we worked HARD to fix it, and it is BEAUTIFUL.
It took BOTH of U/us to build. I couldn't do it alone. You bet I did it for Him, at His bidding, with my resources, and with both of our sweat and slight cussing and a lot of laughter... which is exactly right for U/us.
You bet I spent what 2 hours with pliers ripping out old staples and fabric until I had a 3 inch blister on my palm while He half listened to Shits Creek with me and worked on sawing wood for a BBQ. ... But then I needed help to get the new fabric on while I stabilized it. I couldn't do it alone, and neither could He. It was a group effort... a partnership.
I can't fix me alone.
We all want to say that we have to fix ourselves to be good for someone else.
I don;t think I could have fixed myself completely, because some ddamage that was done by "others" can only really be wiped out by having the similar situation go RIGHT ... over and over and over, until those fears of past failures, past damage, past abuse disappear.
I can't do that alone. I need Him.
He needs me. He is whole and complete all by Himself.
He is an amazing man, and I truly do not believe I will ever know His like... He is my Hero in every way... but I add value to His life. I know because He is not afraid to tell me, to admit that, and to acknowledge the ways in which I help Him too.
He is my Partner, and I am His. I can't do this lifestyle alone... it requires Him.
He can't do this lifestyle without me (or another partner) it takes two to tango.
I am a partner that follows His lead to the very best of my ability every minute of every day... but at the same time... He is a Partner that leads by listening and watching. He does not lead with an eye only out for His own goals and His own pleasure and His own road map. He leads by keeping His eyes and ears open for opportunities to guide me towards strength, wholeness, happiness, wellness, and fulfillment.
He hears I'm struggling with pain from the new braces so much that I can't politely listen the way i would... I cant even THINK much less communicate... and He asks me to accept this pain for Him. Not because the sadist in Him is getting off on knowing I'm in pain. NO. He knows that I need a line to hang on to... that my sensory issues are struggling HARD. So He will use the tools in His toolbelt and fabricate that anchor to Him.
"I want you to kneel for Me and concentrate. Center yourself on Me. Know that you are walking through this pain because I have asked it of you. Know that this pain is necessary to take another step into the form I desire for you. It is necessary to permanently alter my property into the form that will better serve Me. Find comfort in the knowledge that you are doing this for Me."
....Fuck that Man is brilliant.
and I am incredibly beyond lucky to be allowed to be His partner.
Thank You for all that You bring to O/our relationship.
Thank You for Your time.
Thank You for Your energy.
Thank You for Your love.
Thank You for Your creativity.
Thank You for Your communication.
Thank You for Your trust.
Thank You for all You provide tangible and intangible.
Thank You for the gifts You have given not only me, but "big girl".
Thank You most of all for the gift of You.
I do not take You for granted.
I do not take Your time, energy, effort, creativity, love, respect, communication, trust... I take none of it for granted. I know to the cells of my bones that I can not even contemplate the loss of You. I do not desire to be a controlling partner, I desire to follow Your lead. I do not desire to shape the flow of You or U/us, but I respect that You seek in all ways direct and indirect to know me; my heart, mind, spirit, body, the totality of past present and future to make the best decisions for U/us and me.
Thank You for love like rain in the desert.
*lays head on Your toes and kisses Your instep... because THAT is where my heart lives... not out of degradation, but out of devotion and gratitude.*