Today, something amazing happened. My Daddy lives almost 1,500 miles from me. To drive that it would take almost 22 hours. It often seems like a million miles. We often recognize that we wouldn't fight as we do if we were closer, could touch one another. No no, Daddy didn't drive here. And between you and me, He would not. Daddy would call that a waste of precious time. The only thing quick enough would be a teleport, and I'm not even sure if that is enough.
The discussion of a collar had been brought up in the beginning of our relationship. I've never had one and quite honestly, it scared me a little. To trust someone to pick out a collar that I will be required to wear day in and day out. My career and personal life require extreme discretion.
When beginning to talk to Doms, going through questions and testing compatibility, I would bring up collars. I would ask for examples of what they felt an appropriate day collar would be. It seemed a lot of Doms were quick to jump to collar a sub. But here is what I discovered, all of Doms picked day collars that were openly related to BDSM, not discrete to protect me. It is selfish but discretion is very, very important to me. This is how I was quickly able to identify who was right (or in all other cases - wrong) for me. Daddy was the only one who took time to talk with me about a collar - shapes, colors, designs, etc. This is what truly won me, the skeptic, over with Daddy.
Today, I recieved my first ever and last collar. Daddy ordered me a stunning collar that I could wear, it signifies shapes that are important to him and me. It's beautiful, it ties me to Daddy. It signifies not only our commitment, but when we are together for our future, I will return this to him for my official, permanent collar. It is pretty exciting. I finally feel connected, at peace and kneeling to my Daddy, my Sir.
Daddy tonight seemed so confused, worried and even mildly frustrated tonight. Strange, right?!? Being such an important event?!? He wanted a bubbly, bouncy baby girl. Someone who was dynamic and expressive (trust me I am very much both). And I was calm, relaxed and at peace. Finally, at long last, we are committed in a very special form. I do not need to be in fear of him leaving or not being enough. I can let every bit of my guard down knowing I'm safe. What a relief, what peace. Finally, I can be in my sub headspace without reservation.
It feels amazing.
I love my Daddy.
Key to my heart.