basic protocol
As anyone in a dynamic will tell you it all starts with negotiation, what form will it take there is no cookie-cutter yes there are basic that we all learn and this will I hope to explain them for us. first and foremost is the request to become more then what we are.
it started with flowers it always starts with flowers when I came into my room there was a vase of red and white roses in my room the note read if you still wish to join the family present yourself to Jane right after breakfast. my heart was beating like a drum solo, is this what I want, do I want to be subject to his will, his demands, his care, his love, his justice, his rewards, will it help me, hurt me can he take my pain away. I haven't had one of my spells as I've come to call them I have been having dreams again not those nightmares but that might just be because I'm in a new environment. I had to talk to him before the morning. as I thought the light was on in his office it almost always was. when I got there I noticed Stacy was with him and they were talking she was telling him her concerns so I knocked and sir called to come in Mari. said hi to Stacy sir I have some questions he said sit and we will talk they are personal sir he looked at me and said so are Stacy's but I believe they are about tomorrow morning am I correct the same as Stacy's so we might as well all talk after all if you decide to take this step you will be in this together and will hopefully become like sisters. And I think part of it has to do with that common ailment we all share P.T.S.D am I correct. Sacy and I looked at each other Sacy recovered quicker than me and said O.K. magic man how did you take them away. he laughed and said kido there's no magic involved its just something I learned when I first came back keep busy and keep your mind on the here and now and go to bed so tired you are to exhausted to think Stacy you have been distracted with work getting the company working the way you want it to add in getting little one back in your life and worrying if you are being a good mother witch you are by the way little one and I talk about how happy you are now doing what you should be doing as a woman working in a job you find challenging and rewarding and have your daughter by your side does not let your mind go to that place and poking it . As much as your mind can be short-circuited by the trama of war and what we had to do to survive it can be overloaded with the here and now. and you will both find that I as your I dom will keep you busy enough to let you grow and become bigger than your trama. unfortunately, I can't erase it as much as I'd like to I will make you strong enough to face it without falling apart the same as I can now see the faces and regret it but live with the necessity of it.
when Stacy and I got back to the cottage we talked about everything he said and has done and realized he made no promises he just did what he thought we needed and he will continue to do what we need we decided to try to start giving him what he needed in return.