Here is a secret, you know you have the right Sir when he makes the abyss disappear and you see a flower growing where it was.
He took me on my journey. I walked into his office and said Sir I am ready do whatever I need to make you mine. He came from around his desk got on one knee holding a choker up to me and said thank you for trying to trust me. It is black to absorb all the dark in you and will be burnt when you are ready to replace it with my collar of training you must put it on yourself and take it off yourself only when you feel you are ready or can no longer withstand the pain. Sometimes no most times people can not stand looking at them selves or what the think they have become but know this you will never be alone on this journey I will be right beside you and holding you and when I feel you have reached your limit for that day I will pull you back and hold you and comfort you till you are ready to go on. Remember you are exposing your self to both of us and it is the scariest thing you will ever face but we have all the time in the world so little bit by little bit you will come to your own freedom you must be there before you can give yourself to some one else's care for the rest of your life you may even find after that you are not ready to give yourself to someone else and that is alright you are not obligated too.
And when I put that collar on I felt something between fear and ecstasy I felt so emotional already and we haven't even started he had me lay with my head head in his lap he had me remove my cloths he put a cover over me he put his left hand on my belly and I felt it get hot, he put his right hand on my head and it felt cool soothing told me to close my eyes and look inside. it felt so right I felt so protected like I was back in daddy's lap again. Over time I told him every bad thing that happened to me every bad thing I ever did and he helped me to forgive and even made me find the joy for what they made me become. The rapes the stealing the jail time when it was time he helped me fill in my abyss and he planted the flower. I will always remember the shear joy i felt when I put that collar in the flame and watched it become ash and when he swept up the ashes and put them in Dena's urn to hold hold for him he said from now on they are mine now and for me to deal with. My freedom lasted an entire week before he let me give myself to him. That was the most intense experience of my life it was so slow in its build-up it was the first time I ever ejaculated by man or woman it was so intense i fainted and went blind for 10 minutes but it was not the last time he did that to me. I thought I knew what love felt like before I was wrong now I know that love is not a time or place or person it is a connection of soul to soul that spans time and distance and knowing you will never be alone again because even when they are gone they are still there berried in your soul they live as long as you do only to be rejoined again in a different place and time. for my sister wives I hope you are happy with this because I will never be this open again. love you all and the sub's I have yet to meet. Stacy the bookkeeper
