Gender change

So anyway I didn't get to finish everything I wanted to say but for starters for the comment that was put up there it's not really technically a fair choice in the first place because I don't have a choice and the change it's either live as a guy with female boobs who has chemical imbalance that creates hormonal swings pay $200 a month for testosterone shots or you know go all the way and at this point in time you know I've been through so much with this bull that I much rather just literally find somebody who's willing to start me a new not asking for a free beer handout I'm asking for a relocate and change I will earn my keep but you'll never see me as a guy I will be asking for things that will help me become a female more more until eventually after I I guess the word should uses giving atonement for 30 years of being a guy and you know guys are greedy and stuff and I think that I have to be at least you know somewhat either give back to the females and away that only makes sense to me which would be be seen by them as a less more feminine then them completely next sub or Dom and be willing to watch it for corded and mentally get my mind in the place that he needs to be so strange won't be so bad but I think the it's not right just to jump in somebody's Gender like that especially when when I literally have back when I was younger morally degraded women unfortunately and initially talk to them like they were under me and now I have the choice to make so this is probably I would say, come back and get me but I'm okay with it because in the end if somebody can truly generally put me at a point where I am happy with who I am and start fresh where nobody knows me as who I am currently or has ever seen me anyway literally I will earn my way to change name and gender on driver's license and even try to find a way somehow change social security number if possible so I literally am asking for somebody I guess create play Brand Nubian that has existed for a long time but has never got to live in the real world ever and I don't care at the end if they're willing to stand through with me when I wake up out of surgery and hey now only threw the rest away I mean they have first dibs on me because but I don't particularly like guys but I know in order for me to Foley toll firm Mike actions as a guy towards women if somebody a female were to demand me to do something for guys for them it would be and I would do it in a heart just because it's um you know a chick you know I have to experience everything has a check at least once if not cuz I'm not a dominant person anymore I used to be now literally I just one live is a lesbian sub maybe even a slave I don't want to have to make choices and I want somebody to make me fall through with this decision because I have a problem with following through right at the last minute I want them to have a contract with me at the end of this and literally push me to do this I deserve in the end to be happy with myself happy with somebody else regardless of where I'm at and don't want to have to hide like honestly speaking I don't technically have to hide but there's nothing for me here anymore