8 months ago. Oct 27, 2019, 1:19 AM
As my profile stated, I am fairly new to this lifestyle. I met a Dom who introduced me to the lifestyle. He never pushed it on me. He simply stated, "this is what I am into. If you'd like to try it, do some research and reading on it and let me know your thoughts". I began reading and searching the internet for anything I could find on this newfound lifestyle. The more I read, the more intrigued I became.
I started reflecting on past relationships and found that what i liked doing in the bedroom was more along the submissive role. Always making sure my partner was satisfied, always wanting to make sure I filled his desires, trying and exploring new things to keep the vanilla life bedroom scene interesting.
I went to the Dom and expressed my interest in trying this lifestyle. We had several conversations and any questions I had, he was more than happy to answer. The first night we were together was amazing. I submitted and he accepted.
We began more casually than what he was used too. He was starting from scratch and had told me on numerous occasions he was happy he did not have to "un-train" me. He began asking questions about my schedule for work and things going on at home so he could put together a training schedule.
Things progressed but training never started. Or maybe it had and I just wasnt aware. I started doing things on my own. Small things but still things he wouldnt have to train me as hard on. Posture, kneeling, using my words, etc. When I told him I was doing these things, he was very pleased.
Then one day he said training is going to have to wait because there are things going on in his life that he needed to concentrate on. I respected him enough to let go of it and agree to step away.
That's when I found The Cage. I have spoken to Doms/Masters and Subs/Slaves to get more insight on the lifestyle. Now without a Dom, I'm finding myself craving this lifestyle and wanting to submit again. Or am I just missing him and the dynamic we shared?
To be continued. . . .