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My journal of my journey exploring the role of the sub
6 years ago. June 8, 2017 at 7:19 PM

An Account of my first true submission.

I had my first full Sub experience recently in an agreement with a women visiting London on holiday. She had posted on a dating app a request for a sub to go to her hotel and worship her feet for a couple of hours.

I was simply supposed to go to her hotel room near Hackney Central and be on my knees for the rest of the evening to worship her feet before she leaves London tomorrow.

It was all very last minute, her agreed slave had cancelled in the early evening. I mean does this stuff happen a lot in London? A couple of days ago I applied to her advert on a mobile app and she had previously told me I was a little late when I messaged her as she had a sub lined up. So it was an amazing moment to test my commitment, exploring my submissive side.

I recall my fears and trepidation as I went up to the fifth floor in this black and white styled hotel, a discreet lift that ignores the first floor lobby, it seems this life is there for guests, rather than those booking the rooms....

As soon as I knocked on her door, I thought it would be formal at first but no although she was nervous as her voice was unconnected to her breath, she still lead me as the host, I was told to put my things by the door and get on my knees, the agreement was that this was my default position in the room and even if I needed the toilet I had to crawl to the bathroom and could not stand till the door was closed behind me. Nor was there to be bondage of any physical kind but that I had to keep my hands behind my back at all times, unless lying on my back where she said she would pin my hands down with her legs. I was also strictly instructed to avoid eye contact unless I had her foot in my mouth and was looking up at her.

After this her confidence had returned as I was behaving with a willingness to explore this entire scenario to it's fullest.

I spent the first 30 minutes worshipping her London worn toes, first kisses, then licking to sucking with some massaging as well, obeying her as she toyed with me, pulling my hair and using her legs to push me low and order me to lick and suck her feet, she was constantly testing my boundaries and really enjoyed my discomfort for every task. She was a natural Dom or just very experienced as I had never seen this little commitment that makes the whole thing feel like real domination, especially not before in role-plays with previous Girlfriends.

I've never experienced something so thrilling as committing to my role as sub and relishing this vulnerable side of myself. There was a lot of adrenaline inside me and I was a little nervous but the whole experience was quite Pure and I felt a little childlike, I knew my limits and would warn her if she was near and stop if I thought she was taking the piss. I've always been pretty decent with my tongue on a girls body, I have enjoyed over the years learning about erogenous zones and I was working hard, so hard that she really wanted to do more than just some foot licking (which I'd always suspected to be honest.)

It didn't take long for her concerns to switch to nuzzling my face and nose in her pussy as I knelt at the end of the bed still. Ordering my tongue to work from the bottom of her wet pussy to the very top and worship her. I had freedom in this, she trusted my creativity with my tongue, impressed with my attention to detail on her feet, she allowed me to do my usual techniques but not before trapping and squeezing my face in her crotch with her legs, I was clearly her play thing for the evening.

I was discovering things I didn't know about my body, she was quite cruel in using her nails on my skin, she made my belt on my trousers into a collar and lead enjoyed lightly choking me. Years trained as an actor, there are exercises you do to allow your body to be led in contact improvisation and that experience seemed to fit. So much stuff happened, no sex (but I didn't want that in this scene anyway) but she physically overpowered me, made me work extensively on her nipples, kiss her flesh wherever she pulled me face, kiss,suck,lick where the usual commands once smothered into some crevice. She would also see how far my self control would go, twisting my cock and balls, first minor pain than seeing when I yelped..I really don't know if I like this or not but I discovered its part of the playing and should be open to explore, so I let her do it until it was just about unbearable then she would hold the grasp her was inflicting for a few seconds longer.

She originally agreed with me that I would be leaving at 2pm but then decided that for every hour I wanted to stay I would have to please her and make her cum. I've never worked so hard in oral in my life, it's usually been pleasure her, do me or sex and thats the same sentiment I received from past partners, this harsh but fair rule system that was imposed upon me, thrilled me immensely and pushed me to go further.

She said she would of liked to take me back home in her suitcase and there I would live out my days as her pleasure slave.

Now having done an all night Scene with her I don't think I am a brat but I definitely retain my cheeky sense of humour in response. This Mistress (she has been doing it around ten years and has 4 slaves back home.) called me a very well trained sub which is odd because I haven't been in a BSDM scene, or ever trained, only general kink and roleplay with past girlfriends, scenarios that never fully satisfied and where I searched for more. The scene ended after we napped till 8am and she wanted to shower and I had to leave, I asked if I could get a shower and it ended up that I would have her dirty water, I was instructed to kneel in the shower with my tongue in her ass and lick her arsehole while we bathed, she even sensually rubbed shampoo on my hair for me as I licked, so I got a proper shower but in the most unconventional way.

I loved this entire experience, this style of playing to me is the most sexually satisfying thing I have ever done.

She did let me come at the very, very end of the night as I had been good she said she would reward me by sitting on my face but the downside was I had to endure and smell her farts while I masturbated. She ordered me to come just as she let out a very smelly fart and as I came she grabbed and jerked my cock and let me cum on her hand, then while I was still pinned under her, made me lick my own cum off her hand... This is all stuff I've never done before but I got caught up in the moment and found it exhilarating, I really felt like her sub/pleasure toy.
I was overwhelmed in this night that almost felt like fantasy but there are a few scratches on my back and lower stomach that help remind me.

We also both wanted to stay friends and if I'm single and she's in London again, she will summon me again.

I took a risk in safety, (sort of, I requested we speak on phone first and photo ourselves with user names) but had an amazing night, I was used and abused but didn't drop into a state of guilt or shame, I knew my inner was safe and the sub is part of me that can help me explore.

Great night 😄 Very happy :)