My Journey Through Life: Vanilla and Non-Vanilla

Halloooo,

       So right now it’s morning and I only have one class today. For some reason I kept waking up for my early early morning class but after I realized I had a later class I slept comfortably. 

      Anyways I’m on my way to class and my mind keeps wondering to how my life will be when I have a Daddy/Dom. Like I haven’t told you guys this yet but it happened this entire week. I would randomly think of the BDSM lifestyle and how my life will be. 

     Is it just me? Is it because I’m new and just wanna get started but yet I wanna wait and make sure I’m ready. 

     Also last night, after my talk with my mentor I found myself bored and lonely with no one to talk to. Yes I have a best friend who I tell almost everything. I say almost everything because I’m not obligated to tell her every little detail that goes on. 

    She does know I’ve joined this community and that I’m a little. She goes “Little Tae Tae” or “You’re everyone’s little Tae Tae” whenever we hang out and I honestly love it. 

     Sometimes to myself I’m like how can I be little I tall (5’7) and not petite. But then I remember. Size or looks doesn’t matter. That I’m anything I wanna be. 

      Yeah I get confused or lost in my own world. But I’m understanding where I belong and stand in the world. I just gotta be super duper cautious. Which I am sometimes too cautious. It’s hard to explain the type of person I am. But know that I’m like the in between for personality. 

      Like I'm an introvert and extrovert. I’m outgoing and energetic at times. Then I’m shy and quiet. There’s definitely more to say about me but I guess you’ll just have to stick around to…...OMGG I LEFT MY BLOW POPS AT HOME!!! Now I don’t have any candy or sugar. #sadgirl let’s hope I brought enough to get a sweet snack on campus. 

I’ll most likely post again today. Soon on campus so gotta go. 

Song of the day: Come Alive by The Greatest Showman soundtrack. 

Hugs and friendly kisses~ 

Tae❤️

Hallooo Cage world, 

How are you guys doing good? For those who said yes. Glad to hear it. For those who said no. #sadgirl. 

So I just started writing this and I took legit pause because someone messaged me and I got back to them. But anyways, I forget where I was going with this other then the intro. 

Ughh. my mind keeps wondering and look at that another message ping from cage. 

Listen to this real quick so little big bro (he’s younger but taller) went to the store for me. I usually ask for blow pops or ring pops with whatever he’s getting. At first I wanted blow pops which I told him but then a small voice in my head screamed. “I WANT CANDY PACIS” so I told him to get Ring pops instead and guess what he brought blow pops. #sadlittlegirl. She’s a bit unhappy with big me and my brother right now. 

Anyways. I learned more as usually and so I’ll be due to make a profile update soon. 

In one of my classes we went over time management and creating a daily schedule for ourselves. Just know my schedules don’t work for me and my time i=of working in everything I need to work in doesn’t work. My college mentor is like you gotta be accepting to working at my schedules to get things done and I’m like No it doesn’t work and if you saw us i was getting frustrated with myself because I needed it to work. Then there’s like this small voice in my head that’s like 

 “don’t worry we’ll get a daddy who’ll help us get better be better”

 me listening “ really he’ll help us”

 small voice “yup and to feel better we should just wait and stop trying to do this scheduling thing ourselves”

 me “I can’t we need it to work now” 

small voice “nope wait for daddy”  

Me “we can’t”

So if by the bickering in my head you can tell big me and little me have a disagree to disagree. I should’ve knew she was gonna try to come out. I’ve been fidgety the entire day. *whispers* she’s probably the reason my schedules don’t work. Lazy little devil fox hmph. 

Anyways I’ve learned more and feel a bit more confident and sooner or later be ready to start looking. I do know that I won’t get myself into a full blown relationship. Probably something short term where I can see how I feel about where it’s going and where If I need to I can leave whenever. 

Song of the post (it may seem little but it’s a song regardless): Disobedient By Steven Universe Movie Soundtrack.

I just really like the song and it doesn’t relate to little me being a brat or something like that I just like the song AND LOVE THE MOVIE. 

Anyways thank you for reading!

Hugs and friendly Kisses~

Tae❤️

Hallooooooo Cage world, 

It is at the moment 11:26pm on a wednesday night and this girlie is full of energy. I should probably go to bed. I have a class tomorrow but anyways. I wanna say you already know from my previous post that I’ve been a member a couple of days and I’ve already know so much about the community and my reasons of being here. 

I wanna say that IM HERE BECAUSE I WANNA BEEEE.

On a more serious note I’m here because of my interest of being in a lifestyle where your darkest dreams and fantasies (that you’ve either first been exposed to by books or porn) can be fulfilled! I’ve done and seen both but who knows what I’ve done first? Oh wait I do. Ha. 

So I seemed to be going off track. As always but I have more to tell please take a nice seat and read. As I was saying I found cage by trying to find a daddy. Hahaha isn’t that funny I found a BDSM site searching for a daddy on google. But I saw someone who seemed like a potential daddy. As I wanted to message them. This fucker of a site was like No No You Member Here First Message Later. Oh snap they got me. 

I had to be a member first before I messaged my potential daddy. #sadgirl. I was more interested as I’ve been exposed to BDSM just not to this extend. So I gave it some thought and BINGO BONGO here I am a little sub fox named PRINCESS TAE. I’m not gonna lie I had my fair share of playful roleplays of me thinking I could dom. Who knows I can possible be dom. Pfft not. As it doesn’t really count if it is roleplay online right? Oh well either way I’m giving sub me a chance to feel special (song reference) and be HAPPY AND LOVED. Before I get off track again that’s what brings me to…….*drum roll* THE CAGE where beast inside us all lays. 

I’m a sub wanna know why? I have a natural will to please others. True I also like to be please in more then one way. I mean who doesn’t but I like to do things for others. I tend to listen to people before I do something. Almost like I’m waiting for them to tell me to go ahead and do it. It doesn’t happen all the time but I tend to do it. So I do things when told a lot and prefer to be told what to do then to act on my own. Yes, I like to still have some type of input as I AM NOT A SLAVE. I hope that explains a bit on how I’m a sub. At least as I know. Actually, I know this because I don’t feel the need to try to be dom or explore a dom side of me. Maybe its just roleplay. What I look for in a dom or relationship seemed to be termed as  total power exchange relationship which I’m confused on because I’m read that total power exchange relationship is between Master/slave but I not much of a slave. A bit of a pet? Yes I see myself dressing up as a kitten or a fox but not to the extend where I’m in a actual cage of things like that. So if someone wants to clarify on that please do. I do have people I can ask but if I asked everything in messages I wouldn’t have much input here. So some questions I have will be put here for you guys to help me answer or understand. 

Hope this helps you understand more. I wrote this response to someone as they asked me why I was interested and what do I seem to be looking for:

Me: I’m interested in BDSM because I like the of feeling and excitement I get from just talking about it and I also like that it requires a lot more trust and understanding in the relationship then a normal vanilla one. I’m interested in being a little because I like the idea of no responsibilities and to be able to let go and be as childish and crazy as I want. To have someone guide me and treat me well as I don’t have to or tell them to do this and that to just accept that I’m in a childlike mind and do things for me or help me do things like school work, and showering, and to have bedtime and stuff like that because of stress or because I’m deeply upset or overwhelmed I know I need someone to make rules and protocols because I can’t create schedules myself to follow I need someone to make them and enforce them on me also with ddlg it started with my feeling like I have to always be responsible.

Bit of my backstory/past: earlier on in my life and I had extra stress because I dealt with babysitting kids my whole life and I love kids because of it but like I felt like I became connected to them bc I felt like a kid myself and also I didn’t have the affection most kids had as a child yeah I grew up with both parents but my dad would always yell in the house and I grew to fear him and almost hate him for creating this anxiety I have in me now but me and him is better now and okay but like I won’t have the affection most kids have even though I was a mommas girl I just wanted understanding and affection as my father’s daughter.” 

So yes written above was my response to someone else asking me certain questions. Yes it may differs or add on to what I said earlier but at least I’m understanding and know what I want.  

SONG TIMEEEE check out BAD GUY by you know it BILLIE EILISH

Thank you for reading! You guys are all the best! 

Hugs and friendly kisses~

Tae♥ 

P.S. I doing a find my own rhythm and way of doing blogs so they may be different each time they may not 

Hallo I’m PrincessTae and If you haven’t noticed or read my profile. I’m pretty new to this site and the community. I’ve been a member for a couple of days and I’ve already been welcomed by some nice genuine caring members, others so not genuine and seem to be just looking for a fuck toy. Don’t get me wrong I don’t mind being someone’s fuck toy, but not only that but their little girl and naughty sweet fox. 

Since I am new I would just like to mention some things about myself if you truly haven’t read my profile. I am inexperienced in real life, however I have knowledge about the community enough to know and understand that I want to be apart of it. I am still figuring out my true wants and needs of being here. I also want to say that just because I’m new don’t expect that I’m instantly looking for a dom/daddy. I want to gain more knowledge and know how to interact with others before putting myself in someone else care. 

Also, I know for sure that I don’t want to be forced into submission. I’m not a slave. I’m a sub, and a little at that so my mindset changes. Right now I’m obviously a big girl right now and maybe further on as I continue to blog I may let my little side show at times. I have been neglecting her lately and I understand that she doesn’t deserve that. She needs attention and time to do the things she enjoys doing while being care-free but I’m currently a busy BUSY person. A full time college student who is also still figuring out where she belongs in the world while living it. It’s a lot to carry out. 

I think that is it for my first post. Thank you for spending the time to read this. If anyone has opinions, tips or just normal comments on the community or my blog please let me know. 

I also decided that I’ll also just randomly put songs I listen to in the beginning or ending of my posts. Music is a part of my life and has help me through the ‘dark’ times. If you have or do end up listening to the songs I post. Please do tell me your input on how the song feels to you. I honestly like opinions. It gives me a different point of view, a different perspective and it’s pleasing to hear different thoughts and inputs. 

Also if there’s anyone who genuinely wants to be my friend please message me also I am not protected just yet. I will do an update when I am. So on that note open to friends~ 

Okay okay I’ll go now I just wanted to say if you made it this far Thank you it means a lot. 

Song of the post (see what I did there): Feel Special by Twice (Kpop song if listening you may need subtitles to fully understand the song) 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3ymwOvzhwHs

TWICE – Feel Special English Translation
There are certain days
Days when you suddenly feel alone
Wherever you go, you don’t feel like you’re in place
Days when you keep hanging your head down low

Every time that happens
You say one thing
That tells me how precious I am
Everything’s alright
Making me go from a miserable nobody to a somebody again
I turn into someone special

You make me feel special
No matter how much the world makes me fall
No matter how painful the words pierce me
I have you, I can smile again
That’s what you do

Again I feel special
Even when I feel like I’m nothing
Even when I feel like no one will know if I disappear
When I hear your voice calling my name
I feel loved, I feel so special

When I want to keep hiding
When I don’t wanna face anything
As if everything has lost its meaning
As if I lost my meaning
When I quietly sink down

Then you appear next to me
With your warm smile and touch

Everything’s alright
Making me go from a miserable nobody to a somebody again
I turn into someone special

You make me feel special
No matter how much the world makes me fall
No matter how painful the words pierce me
I have you, I can smile again
That’s what you do

Again I feel special
Even when I feel like I’m nothing
Even when I feel like no one will know if I disappear
When I hear your voice calling my name
I feel loved, I feel so special

You make everything alright
On cloudy days without any sun
You’re my shining light
That’s what you do
No matter how dark the night is, daylight comes again
I owe it to you
Because you make me feel special

No matter how much the world makes me fall
No matter how painful the words pierce me
I have you, I can smile again
That’s what you do

Again I feel special
Even when I feel like I’m nothing
Even when I feel like no one will know if I disappear
When I hear your voice calling my name
I feel loved, I feel so special

Hugs and friendly kisses~

It feels like I’m not gonna get this first blog done. Anyways, someone (well more than one person) on this site is helping me and giving advice. One of them just asked me and told me this: 

what brought you to the cage?  How do you see yourself as a submissive and why do you? What are you looking for from a dom, or how do you want to be dominated and why? Some subs want to release control after working a hard job where they are in leadership roles because they are stressed from their work, others want to please someone they find special and let that someone control their life and yet others just want to spice up their bedroom. Without asking yourself these questions you could easily get overwhelmed by the cage.

So this is what I’ll be focusing on to be able to easily answer to anyone who asks me. 

Again hugs and friendly kisses~ 

Tae♥