1 year ago. October 25, 2023 at 10:56 PM
I am a masochists, well at least physically. I've had some intense impact scenes and the orgasms and subspace are freaking amazing. But man my feelings, you can hurt them with a feather and there is no pleasure in that at all. And sometimes people and family, chosen or otherwise, can just be so hurtful. And the best part is when they blame you for the whole situation anyway.
PAIN
Plenty of emotions
And never-ending fear
Incapable of rational thought
Not when near the tears
Peace - why are you so far away
Always just outside my reach
Inescapable feelings
Never what I need
Presence
Acceptance
Introspection
Newness
Patience in waiting
Always wondering what went wrong
Insecurity not holding me back anymore
New beginnings on the horizon
10-25-23