Ok so maybe this is a rhetorical question . . . and maybe I already know the answer . . .
But does it every get easier when there is a break up in a poly dynamic and you still have to interact with the people in the dynamic. Especially when you still have feelings for your Dom and only walked away because one of the other subs was destroying your mental health?
I have so many things to get done and have absolutely no motivation and I don't see any way out of the obligations I have with those people. And the other sub just seems to enjoy getting under my skin yet when I tell my ex that I will just walk away so she can have all of that to, he tells me not to. Ehhh!!! Why is being a submissive so hard sometimes?
I am still trying to figure out what I have done in this life, or a previous one, to deserve to have to deal with all of this BS. Why can't life just be easy for a little while. We had our story all written until she came into the house. And yes he's the Dom so he brought her in and yes from day 1 I accepted her until I went to visit and she did not accept me, my presence, or my friendship any more.
Some days, grabbing my hiking gear, sleeping bag, and hammock looks really good. If only I knew how to forage in the winter in New England. LOL!
Is wanting a simple, peaceful life with a Dominant such a bad thing to want? I don't need anything expensive in life - love, affection, encouragement, direction - shoot they are all free. Where's my EASY button? I'm ready. LOL!
Break-ups suck!
