I've gotten to a place that is new for me!
Life has been an adventure thus far that has been one of learning, whether through traditional education, from the school of hard knocks, years of repetitious activities or from parental training, each day has held a lesson.
Now I am again at a transitional point, life is changing because of our age. It's different this time though I am now more reflective and thoughful before I make life altering decisions.
Luckily my Master is a believer in expression of free will, even for his submissive. The free will is given as long as I stay commited to him. This has given me the ability to be a person with purpose, to be strong for him with the knowledge I will work for our union, always respectful to our D/s commitment even when I am seeking new imformation and learning from new experiences.
I found The Cage by accident almost two years ago not at all looking for a dating website or to hook up with someone but rather looking for ways to stay active and stimulated in the lifestyle while living mostly isolated from social kinky interactions. Over these two years many things have changed in our life.
In my quest I have experienced an epiphany, or maybe I have just come full circle. I now know where I am and where I am going in this world of kink.
I have learned I am not a player, I am not a tease, that the fantasy of online play is just virtual masturbation and even then it can never be as satisfying as real!
But the big change is Master, he is older now and is slowing down sexually but I am not. I continue to need stimulation, I need attention, I need sex!
I wont slow down, I wont give it up! I am a minx!
The qundri is how can we both stay happy but also satisfied?
I held my Sir, I held the love of my life and said even though I am still learning life's lessons I continue to change but this is real, this will always be where I find my happiness. In those arms that hold me tight each night.
I voiced my concerns of my sexual satisfaction while I held him tight, I voiced my need and he listened to me. I am important to him, my needs and desires are important, he is still interest in satisfing my desires. Yes, he understands me!
So things are changing, he will always be the lead but he will support my needs, mostly he wants me to be happy, he wants to help make me happy so he has promised to give me the stimulation I need, all I have to do is hold him tight! Even if I am insatiable and have this need everyday my Master will take care of me because he loves me!
My epiphany is that real is the only way for me to be truly satisfied.
