As I was chatting with a friend here, the subject of my punishment that I was going to receive from my Master came up. I had given myself an orgasm without permission and was to receive a whipping.
I was asked if it was painful and my answer was of course it is painful. Then when I thought about my years of service to my Master I realized that I actually crave the pain. I knew that if Master caught me masterbating that I would be punished but I did it anyway! Disobedient with a purpose? Craving the pain to please my Master. He indeed can always find imperfection in this slave.
So the question I have is did I always enjoy the pain or did this develop over the years?
Now I enjoy the pain, I enjoy when Master pushes my limits. Most of all I enjoy the pleasure it gives him when I am able to endure and still achieve pleasure.
Give me your thoughts please.