i did something stupid because i am a sex addict and agreed to online play with a friend without permission from my Sir! Even though we are no longer poly by Masters request, there was a time that this would have not been such a serious offense because I would have asked. Yes I know how wrong this is, I know enough to know why this is wrong too!
There have been times since joining this site that Master has allowed certian types of interaction with other Dominants and submissives. Such as sharing experiences and kinks with pictures and controlled play. By that i mean that i have been allowed to have my masturbation controlled by a Dominant to give him experience with controlling a submissive. i have been allowed to experience what it would be like to be a switch, never in realtime you see, always online. i found i dont have a Dominant bone in my body, lol!
But then came an unexpected interaction that of course started innocently. Friends chatting about our kink, the other person was a male submissive, he was empathetic and very sexual like me but that was where the similarities ended. He was going through some things and I thought I could help. We had fun talking about how slutty we could be and then it happened!
He needed a dominants attention, i was excited to try and give him what he needed. I failed miserably, i am a true submissive and i told him so. The tone changed over night. He became dominant. My addiction kicked into high gear.
I decided to play, my play partner warned me of not being able to provide aftercare, but i said that i was a big girl and could handle my own aftercare. The play began.
I was told to do things I had never done before, mostly edging which was not something i had ever been made to do. There was nothing beyond my limits but i still hit subspace.
Then i was told to turn my attention to pleasing my Master.
What?!
i dropped! i dropped hard.
Master did not know what i had been up to, i tried to handle the feelings on my own. The play partner became unavailable. i was told that he could not be reach for awhile.
I couldn't handle it anymore and began to cry uncontrollably. Master gathered me into his arms as i sobbed. i spilled my guts. i told Master everything. How i was made to edge, how i was made to plug, how i was made to spank my greedy cunt!
His response was iconic! i am reminded why He has been my only Master!
He said,"knuckles you silly bitch, I didnt know you wanted you to edge. If I had known you wanted that experience you could have edged the driveway!"
Lessons learned, i am not strong enough to play without aftercare, i need to be stronger and just say No to online play!
And most of all i learned Master is the Master of this sex crazied addict!
Oh and i will be paying homage to Sirs cock for many days to come without release! Now that is edging at its finest!
