Into my Darkest Dreams Go I

From the day I first met you.

I knew you were the one.

It was like meeting myself again for the first time.

Innocent and undestroyed.

An opportunity to mold you into what I am now but before the pain, before the fear, before the mistakes.

To repair the damage of a world to a soul so pure that loves without limits.

Without jealousy or envy.

Whole heartedly and with trust.

Without fear in their heart or in their eyes or their mouth.

Seeing the world as it truly is a journey to the unknown and just enjoying eachothers company with the time we have.

Such words so deep touch a soul so many years your senior.

Who lost the warmth of true loves touch.

Yet you in all your glory a life only partly lived has touched me in ways I never felt in my entire existence.

And quite possibly never will.

Such sweat words of love uttered.

I am humbled.

I am yours fully.

A fool for words basking and lost in the glory of your light.

I am yours forever more.

Where ever that may take us.

It doesn't matter because all we have is right now.

- From Now Until Forever More I Love You MORE 

"No one can make you treat people poorly, and no one can stop you from treating people well! Relish in that power and use it frequently"! 

- Just Some Food for Thought 

#PossitiveVibezOnly

If I could be reborn I would do it over for eternity if it always lead me back to you... To be reborn again and know what it is to truly love...

And be brought back to the eyes, heart and ego of a child. To find, me again I would and will do this for an eternity. 

- I Am Yours and You Are Mine Forever

While we are both busy with our lives. This song plays over and over in my mind. 

When you find that One

It takes almost no effort to love, listen, forgive and guide

It's almost as you walk the same mirrored steps

Finish each others sentences 

A desired interest in getting to know your partner

And meeting yourself again before all the bullshit, lies, fears and expectations

Throwing out the rule book and writing your own

Suffering in gratitude so that your partner has space to grow

Knowing that THAT exchange will only bring you closer

Leaving titles, names, spaces, fears at the door

THIS is OUR SPACE

We exchange spiritual and mental vibrations that wrack my soul

Making everything else that we do THAT much better 

I am just vibing out in your very existence just as much as you are in mine 

With no plans,  no timelines, no due dates 

THAT doesn't exist here

We are beyond self ego 

- I AM YOURS and YOU ARE MINE FOREVER

Sorry I didn't follow your blog. I thought I had. 

I have a song I will be releasing from my upcoming album and wanted to see if you were available to make an animated video for it?

The album has many lifestyle undertones to it and would love to feature your artwork so you can get your name out there.

I have the concept laid out already. 

And can forward it to you.

The song/video is approximately 5 min. 51 secs. +/-

Thank you for your time. 

LMM 

She is MY SUN.
When she is gone I still feel HER WARMTH.
She GUIDES MY EVERY MOVE.
She KEEPS ME SAFE.
NO matter the TIME, DISTANCE or SPACE.
I wait.
HOPING to GLIMPSE a sight of the BEAUTY of HER SOUL.
And the WARMTH of her EMBRACE.
The MISSING PIECE of ME.
Until WE MEET again and I AM WHOLE

Mommy misses you and loves you for ever...

You will always be my special little girl... 

I am putting my all in.
She is my first for everything.
We chatted and played and then she was m.i.a. for about 30mn.

So I went to clean my house.
Then came back. It was a few hours later. But the house was a mess. We had been playing for days on end.

She seemed hurt. I apologized. And have checked in to tell her how much I Mommy loves her and needs her so very much ever her since.
Then.

It felt like it was pay back.

We didn't talk for 2 days. I was dying inside.

Then 3 days.

I was just beginning to move on.

Then she texted...

She lost her phone.

I communicated my needs.

But don't want to be too needy and am owner to no one.

Things were going so good she made me feel wanted and needed.

Told me everything I wanted and desired to hear from her.

She told me she wanted a relationship with only me.

And even spoke of marriage and meeting IRL at SOME point.

Now again no messages.

I moved mountains for HER.

I do that for NO ONE.

My heart hurts.

It feels like I am being emotionally fucked.

And I...

I Have NO safe word.

How is it that you do what you do? And each time... It draws me back to YOU.

I love our time together.

You push my boundaries and show me how to push yours.

You adore me, worship me and make me feel like your queen your Mommy, your lover.

You touch the deepest darkest depths of my soul and let me see into yours.

It is more than just sex, it a connection on the deepest psychological level.

We have broken down so many walls and barriers.

And came through the other side, stronger, connected and open to anything and unafraid of the unknowns. 

If I fall I know you will catch me and I will catch you or we fall together no questions. 

You told me #TRUST.

My outside influences, my heart, my fears, my formed inhibitions told me not to let go, to stay in this place, this known, my safe space.

But I held on as you took me by the hand, took my fears, took doubts, my vulnerabilities.

I now I am stronger, I am unbreakable, self aware.

It was more than I ever could have imagined and all that I ever wanted.

"The Pain that you feel today is the strength that you feel tomorrow". 

You take me to all the dark places and beyond. 

I can finally see the light through my own shadows and unafraid of what comes next. It excites me. 

- Mommy Loves her Baby Forever