7 years ago. October 24, 2017 at 4:27 PM
Dear Blog,,
So funny and ironic how life experiences from "God" help us grow as individuals.
I met my " Master I believe about two weeks ago.. and in that time period I have cried more
than I have in two years, however them tears helped me to grow and learn about myself and him
as individuals.
Picture it, here I am lost in "vanilla world " battling dark desires I have never had
before, no memory recall , sick, angry yet humbled...craving for a change. All I know is this man was out of nowhere talking to me and liking parts about me I wasn't use to being liked but needed the admirement " It was my soon to be Master". Not recalling , how we met. I said hi to
him out of where.Push comes to shove there was something about him that reminded me about me. My gut told me he was born April 2.....correct:) we have had some of the same trama's and I could relate to him. plus him being a master excited me. Still in Vanilla land I found myself being trained but not realizing him helping me.. it was subtle his training..as he was helping me I kept rebellion against everything, YET hooked and falling in love at the same
time. We are so much the opposite but the same , It caused alot of friction.. Because of my past experiences and trust issues it caused me to lose sight of me and he is helping me to learn to trust in myself , buy him not trusting in me because of his past experiences. Ironic huh? I am in week two, of a fresh start to training. I was lost but now found and really was found the whole time , not realizing because of worry and my own demons. .. Thank you god!
Sincerely, Duality