sub space

it started with a response to His profile. the title - 'i will push you down', it caught my attention.  the profile text even better: 'be ready willing and able. you have car trouble, no phone service, mine is the only house within miles, you step in to use the phone and without warning I push you to the floor, bind your hands and feet, cut off your clothes and rape you all night. do not respond if you are not serious.  you are either all in or you are not. I take what I want in a selfish manner. don't waste my precious time.'

my heart skipped a beat, any submissive who finds that one possible Dominant that fills that genuine desire for the fantasy they love knows what i am talking about.

quickly,  without forethought,  i send Him a message. 'Sir i am interested in Your fantasy' and attach a few pictures so He knows what He will be getting. He reads the message, His response 'interested' after a some back and forth, i give Him a few dates, it will be simple, i will play the part and satisfy His lust for a night. as an experienced submissive i know the precautions and i know the part well. having played in several rape fantasies, i know what to expect and how to react. keeping myself safe is always primary but of course He will need to commit and respond to the date.

for me, it has always been a lifetime of submission  and release after a Dominant or Master has had His fill of my servitude. 

i am completely turned on by the hunt, catch, inspection and use by new and exciting Masters and Dominants throughout my life.

learning new protocols, being molded, corrected, and trained to His specific needs truly inspires and completes the internal slave within me.

knowing that each period of submitting to Him completely fills His needs is as exciting as waiting to serve the next.

I have been owned, sold, traded and released and each time a new Dominant or Master had a unique ability to reshape me into His property.

not everyone can serve someone long term and not every Master seeks a lifetime slave. as a submissive i am ok with that and patiently wait for the next Master to come, collar and have His fill.

with one look, it is all He said, wherein as a submissive i let the Dominant in my head. His touch will capture me, His skill in bdsm will obtain my head.

for it is not a game or a moment or place, but lowering my eyes as not to see His face.

and at the moment that He binds me and takes me away, He leads me to that sub space where He gets to play.

whether on a cross, tied off to a sling, being whipped, fondled or tortured, His complete pleasure is my thing.

the added pleasure of His pumping thrusts, gives birth to a special form of submission that focuses only on the needs of the Dominant.

after a session i leave head down, knowing that i brought Him pleasure as evidenced by His seed, knowing that it was only in my complete submission that could be found in all my submissive deeds.