Finding me, with Him.

Lately I have been having a rough time accepting myself and allowing myself to be happy. I didn't have such positive empowering influences over the years and I am constantly vying for approval in an unhealthy way. I don't know why I think putting up a front and essentially living a fake life is going to gain approval from others, but I have been doing it for a long time now. I don't know what it's going to take for me to stop standing in my own way, and that's where I am now.  

Just having a rough time being open, I've been so vunerable with Sir before but I think it's starting to scare me. Been feeling really anxious and worried lately. AH!

Love, no matter what form it comes, is never wrong. 

Home sick all day, Sir brought me medicine and tea. ? Trying to be productive and get school work done, but it's not happening. 

Just sort of wondering, fellow subs, did you ever feel like you should supress the need for a Dom? Like was it hard to accept yourself? Sometimes I get thoughts that there's something wrong with me, and I'm wondering if anyone else has ever felt like that? 

I had never fully submitted before I did with him. I had never felt so protected and calm all at once. The most protected and safe I had ever felt. I didn't know what to think for a long time. Once I cleared my head I knew. I was a submissive and more importantly, I was His submissive.