I don't always have the best coping methods for dealing with life, I have gotten better, and I have learned a lot about how to avoid making really bad, really dangerous decisions. Doing something risky or daring after a stressful situation is part of how I feel with my emotions. So what do I do when I know a period of stress is coming? I do something safe that gives me the same sensations.
Recently for example, holidays just wrapped up, budget is tight... these are rhings I knew were coming. So when a dear friend asked if I would go and get a piercing with her I did. I had money set aside for whatever this and the clamps, the needle the remi see every to e I move are good. The anticipation of surprising a special someone (whole I haven' been able to see recently and who is struggling with there own life issues) is a positive bonus.
No I am not going to get a piercing every time the go if gets rough, but it is something that is helping me now, and it is muh healthier than my previous behaviors. When the weather is better I can go for runs until my lungs burn, I can go to the local lake and jump of the low bridge into cold water, I can do a lot more to get that feeling. In the winter it is harder so I went with the idea that had been rolling around in the back of my mind and I'm better for it.
