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1 month ago. Mar 25, 2021, 10:41 PM

This is gonna be a long one but I need to talk about it so here I go. 

I've been incognito for a minute but many of you that I've actually gotten to know, know that I have not actually started a relationship within the kink community and I have not been with a man. As much as I have wanted too, it just never worked that way. I always just end up with women. I'm very very picky with who I give my time and energy too. 

About a week ago, I started a fwb situation with a man that I have known for a couple years who happens to be a Dom as well.

Oh my goodness, what have I been missing my whole life??? I'm feeling things I never thought I would, my body is being pushed far past what I thought it could and I love it, I'm learning so much about what I like. . .there isn't much I don't like so far. 

I'm very eager to learn and please and it shows😁 I get rewarded very well for it, also. 

It's safe to say that vanilla sex is ruined for me for the next lifetime, I always thought it was boring aside from the little spanking and choking I have experienced but now it is definitely ruined even with those reasons


4 months ago. Jan 9, 2021, 11:44 PM

We loved like we fought,

slugging our way toward each other,

sending up flares to announce our advance.

And when our cityburned,

we stood in the ashes,

and admired each other’s bodies.

Now I ask you: how will we manage

without the steadiness of our long unhappiness

Marilyn Krysl

5 months ago. Dec 9, 2020, 4:56 PM

So, sitting here on the start of my birthday, after having completed another revolution, I am thankful for the will power I have and for the little things in life that has made me who I am today. As I have a quiet day at home, aside from lunch with family, I have decided that the best thing about birthdays. . . .can you guess. . .yep, it's cake. Even though I waste all the frosting, CAKE makes the day!!!🤣🤣 For everyone with a sweet tooth today, I will have a piece for you. It's my birthday, I can eat the whole cake if I wanna😅

7 months ago. Oct 11, 2020, 2:55 AM

In the midst of Covid, having mandatory quarantines even though I tested negative and all the problems that arise from being off of work for a significant time. Plus, being the people pleaser I am, I have been there for everyone at all times🤦‍♀️ I am completely drained and working on my pick me up. Looks like Halloween movies and spooky stuff it is!!! Better enjoy it while I can because with this job promotion, I'm going to be basking in the overtime😁I am now the assistant manager of my restaurant, I am extremely excited but I have to find a balance for my submissive side. 🧐🤔 

10 months ago. Jun 30, 2020, 2:14 AM

Take me to that place
Where my mind is not my own
Where the colours are more vivid
And the music has more tone
Where my senses all evaporate
And all that’s left behind
Are the pictures that you choose to paint
On the walls inside my mind

Let me drift on placid waters
Let me hang on crescent moons
Let me wander in it endlessly
Don’t let it end too soon

Take me to that place
Where I do not need to think
Write your stories on my body
Let your touch become the ink
Take me far away from here
Let the world outside us cease
Let me take your pain and give you tears
Our bitter sweet release

10 months ago. Jun 27, 2020, 5:16 PM

Take a walk inside my mind before you wander round my body.

Earn my trust and know my strength if you intend to own me properly.

Let me know that I am wanted before I give myself completely.

When you touch me, make me feel it, make me want more, make me need it.

Take me gently before you hurt me; touch my soul then give me pain.

Restrain me just to free me, show me all the things I crave.

I will be a willing vessel; I will give you all that’s mine,

If I’m wanted. If I’m needed. If you’re there inside my mind.

10 months ago. Jun 22, 2020, 1:10 AM

I miss the mind freeing pain, the complete shutdown.

Lost in the vibrations of your control, no lucidity.

The power behind the words, the thoughtless submission.

No need to control my world, watching the dissolution of my reality.

Reach inside distort the chaos, paralyze the fear.

Release me from my self-inflicted bondage, ravage my soul.

Expose and lay me bare, look over the weakness lying before you.

Feed on the tumult surrounding me, give me the peace of silence.

Take all I wish to give, push me over the edge then take the rest.

Do not listen to the falsa narrative falling from my lips.

See beyond the strength, look for the hidden things.

The battle is necessary to find the release.

Tear down the structure, it is a false façade.

Pull me from the insulation of my fears, drag me into my true destiny.

Make me into the obsequies possession I crave to become.

Still my mind

Steal my breath

Claim my soul



I'm so bored with my life right now. My small town with no kink factor, my job, my lack of sex, my hobbies. . . .All I can do for now is day dream about all the things I crave

11 months ago. Jun 13, 2020, 1:15 AM

I can feel your throbbing agony... it penetrates me to the core. I want you to run your tongue alone the bladed edge of my sorrow.

In your numbness I will make you feel again. As your pain licks blood in horizontal rivers from the cruelty of your whip.

Even though your eyes are cold, I can feel the turbulent heat rising from you, coming in waves through my sense of smell. The sweat of the day mixed with your tears roll down your skin and score the tracks my tongue will make once I am unbound.

There is nothing I cannot endure for you, the well of my pain is deep; at the bottom of the chasm of terror we met. As you ran your tongue upwards I began to breathe again. First with desperate gasps, then, as I acclimatised to the intense pleasure, my breathing became mounted upon soft, lapping moans.

Each time I cried out I could feel you feeling vicariously. You feel through me and I, in turn, give back to you the vast emotion you generated through your initial cruelty, the match and fuel consumed, left in warm bliss.


11 months ago. Jun 12, 2020, 1:45 PM

I am, let's just say, an acquired taste.

I am a contradiction to all I say. I am too controlled in my day to day life which makes things hard, (working on that and one day I will find a dom, not scared of that and will help me push pass what I can't) very strong willed, I'm blunt, I'm honest, I'm sensitive and feel things deeply, I dislike 97% of humanity and would rather be alone or in the company of one special person, I don't ask for help from anyone unless pushed on me, I'm loud but weirdly quiet in the same breath and I don't like small talk, I would rather sit in silence, and I'm a people pleaser even if it hurts me in the process. The list goes on and on

It has taken me years to be okay with all of this👆👆 and still to this day I have issues being okay with who I am. 98% of the people that come into my life have issues with me and I'm done trying to conform into what they think I should be. I've learned that I'm always going to be a lone wolf and my small tribe will flock to me sooner or later. I'm soooo sick of hearing that I am too much so I'm simply not going to listen any longer🙂


If you are having trouble today or if someone is on your ass

Always remember. . .You are beautiful and or Handsome and You are worth it and anyone in their right mind would love to know the real you. 

11 months ago. Jun 12, 2020, 2:57 AM

His hands on my throat

As he inches in with every stroke.

I feel the urge build in my throat.

I look him in the eye and say,

Tighten your grip.

The power of asphyxiation

Makes me drip