4 years ago. February 22, 2020 at 6:53 AM
I am new to the lifestyle and honestly I've always thought I knew what I wanted and needed. But now i feel like that's changing. I've always said that I don't want a dom outside of sex, what I was really looking for was a sadist to calm my masochist cravings. Pain with sex is all I was looking for but now I don't know. I feel like I want more but at the same time I'm in love with someone and am currently waiting for us to be together. But in ways I am craving a more dominating presence in my life. Nothing online or long distance I need someone who could be there physically. But my reservations are I need my autonomy as well i have a busy hectic life and care for my grandma. I need help I feel. I don't know what to do?