Helms - Deep

So I’ve been getting into the  BDSM world a lot more recently. For years now I’ve been doing my research when I could outside of work. Looking into what I was told to research on the subject and not really looking any further. Now that I actually have the time to look into it properly it’s a lot easier to understand the deeper ends of what it’s all about. For years I’ve felt like I was missing something, like there was a gap in my knowledge and as it turn out! Starting at daddy was the wrong thing to do.  Not a bad start, I was just researching the wrong thing for years and trying to figure out why the ends were not meeting. At this  point Ive completely mastered the caregiver aspect of this and left out the get things done part, the Dom part. Now that I see what I need to work on, I want to start implementing it into my life more. I will see how that works🔥. I can’t keep being the great daddy that will give out cupcakes at midnight because I know it will make you happy. Instead give out a bottle of water and set a hard bed time.  It’s this type of thing that I beat into my head, telling myself the I was a Dom strictly because I took care of you. While I do deeply enjoy being a caregiver and a daddy, living it in that aspect? That’s not for me and it has left me feeling empty and unfulfilled. My mentality has always been strict and unyielding. I feel like I’ve become week over the years and I have to step out of that.