My sub recruited me

It’s been over three weeks of conversations meetings and lunches. I still don’t feel like I’m worthy of being your Dom. I give task and we talk about punishments and yet I still feel inadequate to be your Dom. Then we have a sexual experience. I look into your eyes and say go down on me. I grab your head and pump my cock deep into your throat knowing people may be watching on the other side of the carwash. You don’t stop me you invite it actually by accepting my cock tap your tonsils. When the dryers turn on I tell you to stop. You let me know later that you orgasmed because the way I held your head and you couldn’t breath but you still wanted to please me. It was then I knew I’m worthy of being your Dom and you will be my sub. That’s why I collard you today. TT you are mine. 

The emotions are stronger than you have ever had. You are in possession of a persons trust 100%, she told you that. She told you, “You are the one I want.” “Put your arms around my neck”, “I will sit here let you pound me and not make a noise, it will be all about you.” These words bring such strong physical and emotional reactions. I’m still learning the lifestyle and I want to do right and satisfy my sub. She says I’m doing fine. I know she’s ready for me but, am I ready for this next step. 

You know how I feel about certain aspects of my life. I became a vulnerable person and let you in places very few even know exist inside me. You said, “I’m perfect for you” and “we were searching for each other.” I told you I’m here for the lifestyle change and wanted to be on this journey with you. So why choose now to violate that trust. Why choose to violate it in a way that you know is wrong. Apologies are confusing when a person chooses to violate trust. You made this decision for some reason you wanted to do this and that’s what hurts. 

I would like to say

Thank You;

for letting me grow

for being patient with me

for realizing something in me I never knew

for trusting me

.

Because of that

Daddy will;

make sure you grow within this relationship 

always listen 

push your limits

protect you

We wanted to meet each other for lunch. I ordered for her I knew exactly what she wanted. We sat and talked about what turns us on in the bedroom. I’m still in my research phase and she understands that. She appreciates that she has a man in her life taking control of her wants and needs. Now I’m getting a little more comfortable being a Dom. She’s starting to learn what I want and what I need to keep my interest. She makes comments all the time to me,”I like how you are learning about the lifestyle ” or my favorite, “ that was a typical Dom response.” She likes to stroke her Daddy’s ego which only makes me want to prove to her that I will be your Dom. 

So after our first face to face we decided to make this a sub/Dom relationship. I did a lot of homework because this is new to me and she has been in the lifestyle. Doing this research I realized this is something that I should’ve been part of my life all along, and I let my sub know that. She simply said, “I know” now in my head I’m thinking you know but do you really know. LOL. We decided to meet at a porn shop because she has never been and honestly now I get to find out all her kinks and fetishes. She couldn’t keep her hands off me and that’s ok considering my wife really doesn’t touch me. We looked at all the toys and movies and we are both stimulated visually. Anything shiny or with big ass or tits we grabbed. Now I know what she likes in the bedroom so I had to push one more limit, her public view on porn. So we went to the strip club. She was checking out the tits and ass as much as I was. She’s a keeper. She will be my first sub and I can’t wait. 

It started on whisper as flirting, she was interested in a black man and I like white women, both married we talked for about 2months. She began to get frustrated with me because I wouldn’t send her a face pic. We decided to meet and I went by her job she was very interested then. I thought to myself yes I got a FWB in town this is going to be fun. She was having a birthday party at a local bar with her colleagues. I told her I would show up but I wouldn’t approach her because we didn’t want her colleagues to know anything. I went to the bar she saw me and we locked eyes (her eyes are beautiful) she smiled with approval. We chatted on the app at the bar for about 15 minutes until she said follow me. Her job was just around the corner. We walked in she said you have 2 minutes. I kissed her and grabbed her, I wanted to feel every curve on her body. She had to go back and I followed. We continued flirting on the app. Now she lets me know she wants more, and I’m willing to give it, but “he” won’t leave. She let’s me know it’s her husband. Now I’m thinking, this is my type of girl. We end up back in her office and she drops to her knees. You know the rest. But this story isn’t about that it’s about the aftermath. We talked the next day and she made an aggressive comment (not sure what it was) I said are you trying to Domme  she said, “No I’m a sub and I’m looking for a Dom, you should look into it I think you would be good at it.” That’s how we met and why I’m here.