My King didn't have the time to stop in after all. I'm ok with that though. It would have been wonderful but I know he needs his vanilla time.
I did my own thing. Checked other sites I'm a member of. Enjoyed having my space and quiet time. Watched TV, did some maintenance on my laptop, read a little but my mind was all over.
Being a single woman living alone comes with certain worries and issues. So those were on my mind. I made a choice after my contract was up that I was going to take some time off of work to focus on family and slow down from all the traveling I was doing. I have a business degree and have worked in finance and marketing over a 20 year period so I should know how to budget right? Well it is always different when doing it for one's self.
There are always unpredictable costs and circumstances that we don't expect or budget for.
So this evening I revised my budget and it stressed me out a little. But I figured it out finally.
I can still take that year off that I wanted to. I just have to be a little careful with my christmas shopping this year.
When you're used to having money, being comfortable and not worrying, it's hard to deal with not having that any more.
I won't struggle but I can't enjoy the little things I used to enjoy. Going out to dinner and a movie. Making huge meals at my expense for family or friends. Taking a weekend trip just to get away. Now all these things will be forgotten until I decide it's time to go back to work.
I need this time off. Not just for family, but to readjust my life and my mind. To give my mind and body a break from all the stress that I had put myself through the last nearly 10 years.
There were health issues, deaths, the end of my 10 year D/s relationship. All the traveling for many reasons including work. With all that my mind and body took a good beating...and not the pleasurable kind...lol
So I'm wound up after all those figures. My mind is not going to rest for awhile so I started cleaning...again.
I'm taking a bit of a break from the smell of Mr. Clean and bleach.
My bathroom is sparkling. A few loads of laundry folded and ready to be put away.
Next I'm going to tackle the kitchen cupboards that need reorganizing and probably a little purging.
So I think it will be an all nighter for me. But all of that will give me satisfaction and my home will feel a little lighter as well as my shoulders...figuratively speaking.