Wondering mind ....

I'm so blessed to have you in my life.They say Things happen for a reason and I now believe that's true. You have crossed my path when I needed you the most and i didn't even realize how much I was missing or that I needed you so .I appreciate all you do, all you are , and all you're teaching me to be.You take the time to take your time with me. Even when you assign a task its something you know i need that i nay not see.You cherish me in a way no one has and only you can.You see a light in me that I cant see in myself .You continue to open my eyes and help me see the light and make it shine brighter.You have a way with me , one i don't understand.I don't know how you can get anything out of me but you always do even when I want to hold back.you make me feel like the person I want to be. You're always trying to make me better. I feel like u really care.Its so easy for me to be a puddle in your hands. When I have an issue or I'm scared I always want to run to your arms.you are my safe place,  my protector,  my  warm hug , my what ever I need in that moment ! U are my heaven on earth.You mean the world to me!

Thank you Threefingerswide !

excuse me while i vent a lil....

Why is it so fucking hard for people to read a profile before contacting me.I give enough information as to not waste our time. But leave much to be discovered.I'm a very special woman and I deserve to be treated as such ... We all do!!

For the life of me I don't get why the simple task of good morning and good night are so fucking hard!!! Like if u just write those words and nothing else don't add ur own flair to it(lame BTW) it takes 5 seconds.seriously!

And if I'm not worth 10 seconds of Ur day the keep fucking moving on I don't have 5 minutes to get that equipment u call a dick off!! (Sorry not sorry) is this really asking too much? I don't think so... I'll keep waiting ...lol

So I know I'm still new here and constantly growing daily... I will be the first to admit when I started on the cage I had little experience or knowledge... I quickly began to back up and become engaged with the community and learned that u needed to educate myself and they way most doms were approching me was not correct here or in a vanilla world.

So I learned somewhat of how things should be and since I have noticed red flags and my standards not being met my inbox has been quiet which im content with cuz i know my worth and my wants and needs.

So I'm putting this out there and I have heard it 1000x before educate urself. Its one of the most important things u can do.

Dom's if ur not willing to take the time to really get to know someone or if ur not willing to put the time effort and work into this dynamic especially if its online only please don't waste my time or yours!! I do have a heart of gold and i tend to give more chances then deserved but I'm not stupid either.my time is very limited and if I choose to share it with u you're one of the lucky few.

I would also like to say ty to those who have helped me thus far in my journey whether I reached out to u or u to me each step is a part of my story thank yall ur very appreciated

💕heart💋

So many times I have opened this and attempted to post my first blog..And for one reason or another I backed out usually cuz I couldn't figure out how to get all the bs from my head to my fingers... I will start by saying this I'm not the greatest speller I have fat fingers and a new phone so bare with me lol...
So I'm in a mood ATM I was upset by a blog another member posted which I no longer see. I was sad cuz I was cheering her on from a far looking up to her in ways and she never new.I felt like her and I had a lot in common. I was upset to see she had been hurt only to come across my own pain tonight.
I found my first real potential Dom. I was so excited it was like Christmas for me.we were vibing so well or at least he made it seem that way. We had real conversations laughs and it wasn't all about sex i really felt like this finally maybe the dom i get that special connection with that only comes from these dynamics.then lack of time and effort from him was getting to me .I get we have lives and it can get in the way but i work 2 jobs one day off a week, i have a son that his dad doesn't really help , i have a husband that expects a lot and doesn't appreciate me or what I do .i have step kids a house to run  clean 2 dogs. I work I come home to cook for the family and my job is never done which is fine ... But somehow amongst all the craziness I made time for u! I always said goodnight good morning I messaged less then u were on my mind cuz I didn't wanna scare u away cuz u were always on my mind.  so me being me I had to voice my opinion cuz it would have eaten away at me.so I did .of course I wonder now should I have just been greatful for what I did get and just work with it cuz now I have nothing and my hope and and mind are lost yet again. It was really nice to have someone to talk to and learn from and see how much we had in common.I didn't wanna do online but he had a way with me and made it feel like maybe this could work.....needless to say it isn't .at least not now. And for the first time in the longest time I shut my mouth. I knew I had so many emotions and had so much to say and not all of it was nice but I managed to be quiet and I'm proud cuz my mouth often gwts me in trouble and tbh I have no idea what the future may hold .
I will always remember the conversations and good times we had . It was a good start in this wonderful world. And I am still happy u were some part of it! These feelings will pass.