Willing but am I able

So although its been a while since I first shared my discovery that my partner is a very experienced dominatrix. We have moved at a steady pace and my role in our ssxual relationship is now very clear and I haven't been happier sexually.

I have read and read and read as much info as I could. And although there are some scary horror stories out there the overall response for myself has been positive.

And the fact that we talk about it openly with each other has helped no end. What started of with simple commands and gentle punishment has increased to a level that literally blows my mind.

There are a few restrictions  we place on each other and she is always mindful of hurting me too much. 

When it comes to sex we only get forceful  if I want to wear my collar! And if she is in the mood to feel pain she may wear my collar. The role reversal doesn't happen often but defiantly adds another level when she wears collar. This is normally her wanting to be raped! This is normally when we are having a meal or watching TV and I'll tie her to the chair and forcefully choke her and be very rough with her tits. We have a few toys hidden throughout the house and there's one which we use to make her gag and struggle while tied up.

At first I was nervous about hurting her as its not something I have ever taken p!measure in before. But after talking through boundaries (anal with penis is the only 1) she wants to be blooded and bruised.  Bearing in mind I've cut someone intentionally its all been about taking our time and being careful and safe mentally and hygienically. So far there haven't been any moments where we've gone "shit that's too far!"

But my role as slave has been eye opening. We've experimented with toys, gags, choking and pushing my pain thresholds.

Turns out we haven't found it yet and who knew she could make me cum just by fucking me with a strapon!!!! Now I won't deny its been scary but exciting but wow.

I'll keep you all updated 

 So where to start on what has become a very eye opening chats with my better half.

It turns out that she is very very experienced and has had many subs that ranged in wants and desires. 

I'm still getting my head around it all but so far so good.

I'm going to see her in September and I've said that I want to go to a club to get a better understanding and see it in the flesh. Oh and she has chosen me an outfit that is.........revealing but very sexy. So I'm game. Thankfully she is letting me ask questions and gives me an honest answer. I guess the only thing left to say is "Yes mistress"

So here it goes......

Saturday evening while at work the usual texts go back and forth. Becoming more and more Into what I thought was just fantasying.

Then she mentions that she used to go to different and weird parties.

And then the relevelations about previous Dom/sub relationships come up. I wouldnt deny that I was jealous and surprised. But more over shocked.

I mean yes sex was a little rough but wanting for me to be a sub???

And the more we talked the more it sounded pretty much how our sex and relationship was heading anyway without giving it a title.

So time will tell I'm now doing my homework and asking lots of questions. 

Bye for now.......