I'm exploring the thoughts behind my desire for submissivness and having a trusting relationship with with a dom. I've got an idea that it is actually somehow to reclaim in a way power that was taken from me without my my consent as a child first and then as a young woman.
But of course that is not the full story.
Sexually D/S is appealing to me and really turns me on. My inclination goes towards being submissive. That is a certaintly. But it is not the whole picture. I feel my power too now. If a good Dom always takes care of his sub and the sub is never pushed beyond limits. Who had the power?
As I walk I feel the power of my sexuality in the sway of my hips and slender legs. I know I'm noticed even when I dress down, it is present. It was once a weakness that was exploited but no more.
I feel it is a power not a weakness .But that's not the whole story either. Because of the sexuality of my walk, the sexuality of my being despite myself - since a very tender age - I had my power taken from me.
Now as choosing to be submissive to someone that I choose to, someone that I can trust to give my power to.... well only sluts and bad girls enjoy sex so if I can find someone strong enough to take my power then it makes me powerless and it totally releases me responsibility from oh I don't know I'm still exploring.
Only in the Cage can I be this free and open to explore my kinks, grow and explore my beautiful new sexuality.