First blog ever.

Even though my weekend started yesterday I didn’t get a chance to post anything yesterday. 

𝒜𝓂 𝒽𝑜𝓂𝑒 𝑒𝒶𝓇𝓁𝓎! 𝒲𝑜𝑜𝒽𝑜𝑜𝑜! ℋ𝑜𝓅𝑒𝒻𝓊𝓁𝓁𝓎 𝑔𝑒𝓉 𝓉𝑜 𝓇𝑒𝓁𝒶𝓍 𝓈𝑜𝓂𝑒 𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓈 𝓌𝑒𝑒𝓀𝑒𝓃𝒹.

I have never been a big writer, I never know what to write about or how to express things I want to say or feel.

I have a habit of jumping to different things hence the scattered thoughts. Just how my brain works. Sorry in advance. 

As my husband always says all women are crazy. To an extent he is right all women are crazy, and a little scatter brained.

That is only because of you men in general who make us this way.

You have this ideal woman you want, you want us to fit in this box of what you see as the perfect woman. I hate to tell you we all don’t fit in this box of yours. Some of us may not be as pretty or as beautiful as you want, some of us may not be as skinny as you want or like.  But we all do have feelings! So when you talk to someone and realize or see a photo of said person you decide I don’t want to get to know this person any longer. I will admit that some women are the same way. It hurts! You make women who may already have self confidence issues to feel even worse about themselves. 
I came to this site to learn more about this life style and to meet new people. Because in my personal life I will tell you I am a lonely person. I maybe married but we don’t talk about much of anything. If I do find something that gets me talking or riled up a little about a topic he just shuts me down because he doesn’t want to hear any more about it, but yet he wonders why I hardly talk to him anymore. I am not a perfect person by any means. But hell if you say you love someone you should at least let the person talk. You expect them to listen to you and what you have to say, You should have the same curtesy to them. 

This is were the trust comes into play you talk to a potential person for a week or so and you expect said person to trust you, how can you trust someone you barely know anything about.

I used to be a happy person who smiled all the time and wanted to make people around me laugh, I don’t find much humor in things now. Even when my husband thinks he’s being funny and I am the butt of his jokes sometimes. I Just want someone who wants to talk to and get to know because I want to find my humor again. 

I enjoy all types of music from all over.