I've found myself in a tube as I usually go to escape my mind but instead tears are streaming down my face and telling myself, "Who am I?"
Surely, I'm not this woman once again in the shower crying my eyes out wondering if I am good enough or good enough as she is for him!!! Because seriouly ain't supposed to be this woman completely lose herself in this world. I used to believe that I belonged here, to be here for him, for him a the man that I love. I used to believe he did but then I was told otherwise by his daughter, friends, and his other women, slave, his queen. And I used to have this personality, dreams, drive, and friends but mostly this belief that I meant something more to someone and maybe I do and I chose not to let myself believe!!!!!
They say that love truly blinds you, in which I believe. Because I've found that one that my brain connects with, that my heart adores like crazy and this sparkle in my eyes that can't faded away, even when the relationship demands compomise or scarifices and made yourself for sake of the love you hold for you. This feeling that you never will lose for him bevause in your eyes he is still the ohne and only love of your life because he truly is that for me.