I don't understand people sometimes. I would like to say that I am tough and smart and always a good judge of character. But unfortunately it simply isn't true. I am too trusting. I believe in people. I open my heart too easily. If I wouldn't do something wrong and manipulative, I find it hard to believe someone else would. Unfortunately, the world isn't like that. People lie and use others. They strike out for reasons I still don't even understand.
And it hurts. When you trust someone, open your heart to help them and find out it wasn't what they told you? It just leaves you feeling empty and sad. I want to get angry and strike back. But that isn't who I am. It wouldn't do any good and would just hurt a lot of people. So I just continue to let the charade continue - not knowing why it began in the first place. Just knowing it isnt my place to knock it all down. I will protect myself and my Master. And hopefully next time, I will be a little smarter, a little tougher, and a little slower to trust.
